j.a.s.m.i.n.e.e.e.

a fresh new start.

2008-02-03T01:10:00.000+08:00

moved!

http://jkazumi.livejournal.com

blithed. :D

2008-01-24T01:27:00.000+08:00

weeeeee. i finally found it! *hops around*

few weeks back, i passed by one of the CD shops @ marina square.. and suddenly found maself so unconsiously allured to the beauty of this female singer's voice.. *-*

but bcos time din allowed, i gave it a miss. and sorta regretted abt it in the end. ): wee. thankfully, after much undyin effort, i found out who she was today!

and also the title of the track! "sometimes when we touch." ^-^b

she's olivia ong, singaporean artiste who was talented-scouted by some japanese producers and then given the opportunity to fly over to japan for trainin. only 22 this yr. haha. pretty hard for me to believe she's singaporean tho. her mandrain sounded really weird, really like native japanese tryin to speak mandrain.. lol.

oh wells, but i love her voice still!

those who like bossa nova music, you'll prolly like her tooooo. (x

>> ppl often confuse olivia w emi fujita. (:

long day.

2008-01-23T00:28:00.000+08:00

it was a longgg day @ work over at the dental side today. ):

but well, still much better than stayin at home rotting.

gonna post random photos for nowwww. finally got time off to arrange the uncountable number of photos i have. the ones taken w ben's cam are just so huge! and ma lappie was laggin like madness. thats explains why it was so time consuming!

grp shot.

jingyi's damn cutteee. (x

erm. i forgot her name, but she's one of ma student's younger sis.

good-lookin weisiang hates to tk photos; took this without him knowing.

aiya too many photos lah. i think i will be uploadin some to facebook.

its sad that things turned out to be this way. but no matter what, pls be strong. God's always there for you, and me too. *hugs* (:

God's faithfulness..

random.

2008-01-18T23:09:00.000+08:00

gosh. i just had a strong urge to blog this down.

nt tryin to be offensive, but i kept seein this repeatedly. SP's advertisin for themselves over msnwindows this time. i remembered that NP did this too while i was still schoolin @ TP back then.

SP's taglines sounded awkwardly strange to me;

"want to go university?"
"your first choice polytechnic, JOIN US!"

lol. ma immediate response: =.="

hey i mean you're spendin bucks to advertise over "hip" mediums to attract your target audience. shldnt the content be just as important and enticin as well? personally, i feel advertisements speak alot abt a brand!

ma verdict? i think SP's expertise, is afterall, still in engineering. (its proven they cant do good marketing..)

okay maybe i jus said smthg to make SP-ians angry. but thats not ma point. advertisements need critic to improve! (:

so on the other hand, while TP's forte MAY not be engineering.. i honestly think we have the most zai design sch and business sch ard. :D but somehow, we just gotta admit TP doesnt sell itself this way, we're one BIGGGGG family, regardless of whichever faculty.

the choice is obvious: TP. (:

**

i just went to meet future boss today. and im actually goin to start work even before cny!

the studio's pretty cool tho. man. im so excited abt gettin started. i hope i get along well w her.. yes yes. so ppl who are interested in photoshoots or the most basic like, passport photo. come find me! :D

i promise to make you look your best. (x

>> gsf: noah's ark. rainbow. God's promise to His people.

bento craze is back?

2008-01-10T23:56:00.000+08:00

met up w dasao today. (the reason why i love thursdays :D woohoo!) and im feelin accomplished today cuz i think we found mum the most suitable present! (X

so anyway!

quite some time ago, i got pretty crazy over kawaii bento in japan. spent free time surfin ard, collectin all the images of kawaii bento i could possibly find.

well, the idea of these cuteeee bentos actually came from japanese mums. (oh man, they're the greatest.) we know how fussy most kids are when it comes to food, what more about nutritious food! so, in order to encourage japanese kids to eat proper in school, japanese mums inserted some meticulously creative ideas into their child's bento lunch!

woohoo anyhow, dasao and i happened to passby this japanese "self-service" eating place, located at far east plaza, jus beside kfc. seein the place alone made me changed ma mind about havin subway for lunch. the whole place is damn spacious, and not to mention, CUTE. (the excessively overused word in ma own dictionary /: )

the concept of "self service" there is; place your orders and pay via this touch-screen machine. theres only one floor staff there, to help change smaller notes and pass down your order (printed on receipt) to the chef.

photo time! i din really dare to take photos of the place openly. cuz there was this guy, whom i think is the boss, seated at the corner observin, prolly the crowd and its response.

the signboard outside. :D i wonder jia's thinkin what im thinkin. OUR FAV MOGUMOGU DRINK!

wakao. i was practically ecstatic can.

lol. cheekychick's the dishname.

havin fun w cheekychick. X)

food quality wise.. prolly not the best you've tasted, but its not that bad either. value-for-money wouldnt be exactly appropriate for mogumogu's case. oh well, you all know zumi wont care. she's easily lost in cuteness.

so much so she made sure that she took enough pictures, and scrutinized the bento enough before decidin to eat the chick. lol.

pls lor, its a cruel thing to eat cute stuff.

>> HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY. i love you. :)

eyes fixed; on Him.

2008-01-07T17:19:00.000+08:00

1 Corinthians 4:5

Therefore judge nothing before the appointed time; wait till the Lord comes. He will bring to light what is hidden in darkness and will expose the motives of men's hearts. At that time each will receive his praise from God.

for the things we do, we're accountable to God, not man.

**

woo! it was a tirin sunday. helped out w tommy for his fyp shoot; a crazy 9hrs of filmin. and still quite a stretch more to completion. but jiayou tommy (and all designers!), you guys can do it! for now, just let the photos do all the talkin:

its a tirin and v tedious job man; these ppl won ma admiration. tsk.

oh man. dont you agree caleb is just super ahpeh?

abby; ma tamago!

i really enjoyed a great deal workin w them. (:

**

a random collage:

hee. simple things that make me smile.

oh yes, the carebear was from ma dad. hahaha. and the greentea icecream from ajiteh totally rawks. if you're thinkin, "hey those characters on the candy package look familiar~"... bingo! they're the adorable tamagochi characters! (:

>> God is often not early, but He is never late. in year 2008, i've gotta learn this impt homework of: patience, waitin on for God's time and guidance.

blessed 2008!

2008-01-02T15:24:00.000+08:00

hello everyone. its 2nd jan! most of you should back to work or school! hope you guys are feeling totally recharged for the new 2008! since its really foolish and pointless to start off a new year w great lethargy, right? (:

as for me, i dont have a habit of writin down resolutions. and i do have dreams and hopes, but i keep them w God. because im quite sure ma memory will fail me.

im outta job now! so its recuperation period for me!

takin the weight off your feet, onto your favorite couch, holdin a good book and enjoyin the mornin breeze.. and thats really spiritual and physical rejuvenation!

besides that, im just busy w cleanin and repackin ma room. ma poor nose has been sufferin the most.

anyway, here are some recent photos from last yr. thanks ben!

ghf/gsf outin to Sentosa:

the youths. (the 4D show was great man! and yes i shouted alot tog w the kids. /: )

christmas 2007:

playin ard w ben's cam. this photo really cracked me up. apparently, lil yibin was curious why teacher carlene wears funny thing on her legs.

all smiles. (:

the ex colleagues and kids from praise.

ONE in the bond of LOVE. (:

christmas eve; gift exchange.

took me manymany hrs to complete all these. but the effort was worth it. (:

totally random. a photo of a piano miniature from chinting and ma fav swarovski crystal brooch, which i rarely use. :P

>> a NEW wineskin from God. the old has gone, the new has come. (:

footprints..

2007-12-28T23:45:00.000+08:00

official last day @ praise!

centre was closed for clearin and cleanin work to be done. and i love the way i spent ma time at work today. tho tedious, but i love it! when school reopens, i think the children will recognise and know that the huge huge paintin outside the centre is done by me! (:

special thanks to gf trivia for her kind assistance as well.

and heres for the loveable children of praise. i genuinely painted the rainbow w ma heart; and that is to thank the children for paintin a beautiful rainbow in ma heart too! (:

woo yayness. youths outin to sentosa tmr! (x

minT club

2007-12-27T22:39:00.000+08:00

minT club is named after a teacher, whom we all call teacher min. along the way, someone misspelled her name, and we thought that the name minT was kinda cool and unique. so we named this clique, the minT club. (TMC)

**
to TMC:

i will miss all you 7, i really will. pls do not think im leavin for higher-pay jobs. it definitely is much more than just that, and pls leave mrs cho outta the picture before i get condemned for nth..

but well, thanks for makin ma stay at praise sucha memorable one.

i still remember ma first week being with all of you.. there wasnt any minT club yet, and apparently you guys hated all the teachers. i was no exception. i swallowed hard when i was told that i've to manage P4/5s. all the nicknames, the horrible manners, the shoutings, and spoilt and selfish attitude. i endured it all thru God's lovin grace, for He let me see that you guys needed something that you ppl have never gotten from teachers.

im amazed at how our student-teacher "friendship" has blossomed. and i thank all of you for makin ma life at praise an easier feat. tho you ppl still misbehave and make me real mad at times, pls remember that t. min has never condemn anyone of you. and i hope the lectures and scoldings have mould you into more matured, thinkin individuals.

besides that, i've seen the brightest smile and heard the heartiest laughters from you mintsters! i've all the funny videos compiled into a folder called, TMC production. it makes me happy to see you ppl happy, like what t. carlene says! on a lighter note, be glad you've met 3 of the nicest teachers; t. carlene, t. jasmine and maself. :P (pls come church w us one day! we've someone more than a million times nicer than we are, and his name is Jesus.)

im also happy because you guys learnt to look out for one another, and werent as selfish as before. but pls, you all have gotta be kinder to the younger ones!

today, only chun and calvin came into the centre. and today, was the last day you'd be seein me at praise. cal and chun seemed normal to me the whole of today. o wells..

to chunhan and calvin:

i was overwhemled w astonishment when you two forged a friendship back with jarell. im so proud of both of you okay! and i jollywell knew how much you guys hated him, rankin #1 right? but today, i was left speechless.

t. trivia has told me what happened today. i honestly din know those smses were typed by you. sigh. to think you guys have ego at such young age huh! how can you shed tears only after i took ma leave! and you guys only muttered a "bye" to me when i was waitin for you all to tell me something more than that.

dont worry boys, t. carlene and i would plan for a gatherin again. in the meanwhile, we can always keep in touch! (:

holidays are comin to an end, and i hope you ppl can be fully recharged for sch nex yr! you've played all you wanted for this holidays, so be sure to study hard when school reopens. dont disappoint ppl like me who have high hopes for all of you! do yourselves proud, and me too!

love,
teacher min

merry christmas! (x

2007-12-25T17:47:00.000+08:00

merry christmas all! (: (minus the santa claus and crazy meaningless parties pls)

its been long since i last blogged eh. have been comtemplatin if i shld close this blog. owells.. nvm. anyway, heres some pics taken durin praise's christmas party!

>> thats matthew (:

>> calvin (:

>> zhenying, shiqi, lixuan, jamine (:

>> cuteeee; the most helpful.

>> yangyang and cien. (:

>> minT club 6/7. jingkang's missin.

>> loveable gwen. shes only 5!

***

matthew 1:21-23 says:

v21 she will give birth to a son, and you are to give him the name Jesus, because he will save his people from their sins.

v22 all this took place to fufill what the Lord had said through the prophet:

v23 "the virgin will be with child and will give birth to a son, and they will call him Immanuel" - which means, "God with us."

have you enjoyed the peace that Christ has brought today?

hebrews 2:14-15 also tells us that:

because God's children are human beings - made of flesh and blood - Jesus also became flesh and blood by being born in human form. for only as a human being could He die, and only by dying could He break the power of the Devil, who had the power of death. only in this way could He deliver those who have lived all their lives as slaves to the fear of dying!

only thru Him will we truimph over death, and hold the keys to eternity. all you've to do is simply; A(accept), B(believe), C(confess).

blueblacks on face = no photos

2007-12-02T21:56:00.000+08:00

wee. just got back from settlers'. it really brought back memories of ma first visit there, with the long-lost clique, MMC. esp alan's infectious laughter, pong's slow reflexes, tat's entertainin mimickings.. and that very time when we played the hauntedhouse board game. the scary ambience created by the gamers was unforgettable.

anyhow, after 2 yrs, i stepped into settlers' agn today. hilariously fun as well.. jerry got all of us cracked up at his amusing expressions and mannerisms. david really amazed me with his super quick reflexes. and chinting.. totally reminds me of pong. hahaha. slowest reflex in the grp. :P

**

something more personal and close to ma heart..

work breezed thru this week. perhaps due to the growin closeness shared between ma upper level boys and maself. minT club! lovely right? (:

she doubts ma capabilities in handlin challengin upper level boys because.. she thinks i play w them more than disciplin them. but anyway, i shldnt be bothered by what she thinks, because.. if she's truly concerned abt their well-being, she shld be happy that the boys have found a teacher whom they can relate to. X(

i've never believed that a teacher's role is to scold, or nag unecessarily. but more like to relate, to care, to understand, and learn to feel like them. personally i feel advices and scoldings are much more effective when the students are comfortable in openin up to you or look up to you. see the challenge now? give and take. its all abt the right balance.

the reason why most teachers failed miserably in conversin with notorious students is because they demand respect, not earn it.

i will miss this v special grp of 7 when i leave in end of january.

tormenting recuperation

2007-11-21T16:02:00.000+08:00

the title says it all.

i was totally shocked when i looked into the mirror yesterday. from a heartshaped face to a square face. aint kiddin. but thank God its gettin a lil better now.

the hardest thing to do now is to brush ma teeth. YES, with the stupid stiches still in ma mouth. really dread the thought of havin to do so. i cant even wash ma face properly. ):

whiney mood. yet i still have so much work that i've gotta do. help!

>> have some discipline in gettin your work done! sigh. the mind is strong but the flesh is weak.

FINALLY OVER! (say bye to 2 wisdom tooth)

2007-11-19T22:08:00.000+08:00

everybody shout YAY! :D

ma wisdom tooth surgery is O-V-E-R!!! had two bottom ones extracted. like what i say, its more traumatizin for me because i know what the dentist is doin at the different point in time. maybe you shld consider to be a dental nurse only after you've extracted your wisdom tooth. haha.

HOKAY. so, time for the report!

ironically, the vertically-grown wisdom tooth was a tougher feat for dr lee, and for me as well. (usually horizontally-grown ones are more complicated because its growth is against the growth of our normal teeth.) so in such cases, the dentist will "slice" the gums and tk out the tooth bit by bit, by "sawing".

hahahahahhaha. yay i love to traumatize ppl now.

pls pardon the horribly drawn illustration, but heres abt the "horizontally-grown" wisdom tooth:

just look! the stupid thing is actually hittin your big molar. you have to remove it, or else plauge will start to accumulate in that unreacheable spot. AND unremoved plauge causes tooth decay and the sinkin of gum bed. and when that happens, you will prematurely lose your big molar tooth, which was made to last us for a lifetime!

oh anyway, i mentioned that the vertically-grown one was a HUGE terror for me. tho it looked normal, its root was actually v near ma nerve. can you imagine the amount of anesthetic i had was enough to make me feel NOTHING while he was happily slicin ma gums. but for this one, i could FEEL(scream!!!) smthg when he's tryin to dig out the v last piece!

but oh, in the end, dr lee decided to leave the tiny bit of tooth there. he felt it was a risk to continue diggin further to just remove the v last bit. i respected his professionalism because if he were to hit the nerve, my lower lip or jaw could be numb for life.

if im soundin v complicatin, nvm.

but bottom-line is, i was really freaked out by ma second extraction. i still could shout and laugh durin the first one (i shouted not because i was in pain, but the "sawing" sound was damn loud and irritatin! ya fair enough, ma other colleagues were laughin at me and dr lee called me drama mama), and the naive me thought the second one would be the same, or in fact, faster. cos it was common sense what.

after the op, dr lee took time to explain to me what actually happened and what he eventually discovered. and i was super thankful that he hadnt continue. hahaha. now thinkin back, for the first extraction.... i was shoutin "GOD, HELP ME!!!!" v loudly inside me. and viola, the op was done in 10 min.

and after a few hrs, i had ma second extraction. i really was longin for ailing to say "okay its out alr. dont move!" but no leh. so i kept singin the psalm 23 hymn in ma heart. and durin the later part of the op, i teared uncontrollably, becus it got quite unbearable for me. but thank God man, he gave dr lee knowledge and wisdom!

p/s: lol. the atmosphere for the two extractions were super drastic. i think dr lee and the rest of ma colleagues will remember it for LIFE.

p/p/s: but seriously, some smart person shout really invent a soundless "sawing" tool for dentists. then agn, it cant possibly be because the human tooth is so hard! *shrugs*

HEHE. 7 days of mc! (for so much of drama for the day..)

***

random photo bloggin!

had a chance to meet up with grace nt too long ago. (:

grace's love@firstsight with ma watch. so i brought her to get it as well!

and then, we went..

NTUC. :D (for a lil grocery shoppin, but took quite a number of pic as well.)

walkin ard..

our fav corner to visit! :D

ma current fav sweet. grace's attempt in smilin like puccho! i jus cant resist those dotty-eyed + mini smile characters. x)

hehe. so natural. this is her love for candies..

bahhh. jap candies are always so well-packaged. i wonder what will happen if i were to visit japan. (declaration of bankruptcy)

love gracy! (:

teddy teddy!

i put this the last because I LOVE THIS SHOT THE MOST. :D

okay end of photobloggin.

special thanks to those who kept me in prayer. phew a 7 day mc, means a week of nt seein the kids.. havin said that, at least i can avoid a particular someone and gettin shot for nothin. :P

>> swollen pigface tomoro. medication. holiday activities preparation. gsf materials. sunday school materials. piano.

cant life be simpler?

2007-11-05T22:19:00.000+08:00

the title of this entry; i really do wonder.

more often than not, arent humans the rootcause or the ones who complicate matters? they dont like it when things are bad, they love it when things get worst. saddists in life.

i really need all the patience from God; to endure every single, nonsensical nittygrits. such meaningless things are wearin me out. ):

Lord, pls keep me burning..

***

i know its sucha long time since i last blogged. but for today, im just gonna do photobloggin of ma dasao and i. well, at least thats better than nothing. (:

p/s: extremely grateful to ma sisinlaw and jiayi who were ma models for ma practical exam. thankyou lovelies. (: (:

hehe. ma gorgeous dasao. (:

entirely God's grace.

beloved jen. he's alr 7 now. how time fliess..

a yummy treat at last. phew.

and not too long ago, we went on for our shoppin spree @ Central mall. dasao's really one of the most special person to me. cant exactly explain why, but its definitely more than just being able to have a supergorgeous dasao. :P

loveeee the hokkaido icecream.

our yummilicious hot and spicy double fish hotpot soup!

her bday's nearin. so i managed to get her smthg useful that she likes.

uber pretty backdrop. cant really tell tho. hahaha.

yawns.

ma brothers in christ are ORD-ing one by one. and im lookin forward to ma own ORD too. 3 more months!

persevereee zumi.

going bonkers

2007-10-17T21:47:00.000+08:00

gonna keep this short.

sorry to have neglected this space. i believe no one tags me to update ma blog simply because they know i really am kept v busy. went over to ma dental workplace to do scalin and polishin, and i bumped into eilin! woohoo. like after so longggg. dr lee says i shld get rid of ma wisdom asap. im scared. ):

its an op, 5-7 days MC would be given. and i dont know how to bring the matter up, because currently theres a shortage of manpower. how shld i weigh such priorities? ):

hmm.. guess God will make a way..

anyway, wendy and alvin's weddin was a great success. thank God. tons of nice photos. (: was nice playin ard with ben's camera too. im seriously decidin to get a better camera. heh.

had ma makeup theory exam today. not too bad lah. hopin to get less than 5 wrong. x/

i think the practical exam this sat would be scarier. time factor is the one thats causin so much exam anxiety. but alright, i'll just do ma best, and God shall the rest! moreover, ma models would be ma gorgeous dasao (for bridal photographic) and jiayi (for creative). :D

phew. so tired. it was a longgg day man; kids outin to sunplaza. had games based on maths, vocab and proverbs. at the end of the day, those lil brats were like complainin nonstop when they know they had to walk from the park all the way back to the centre.. dunno what leg pain, back pain, knee pain, broken leg. haha.. they really amuse me in many ways.

but i still enjoyed being with them every min lah. (:

happy birthday to kazumi!

2007-10-06T14:00:00.000+08:00

birthday's over, nth much special. work and night class was as per normal..

but thank God for bringin me thru another yr, and that im still in Him offerin ma thanksgivings. even tho loved ones may forget, im glad that God hasnt forgotten me.

and so its happy 20th birthday to me! (:

special thanks to all who sent their well-wishes and blessings. each and every single one made ma day. i even had ma playgroup singin birthday song for me. how sweet! UBI gave me a pleasant bday surprise too, kudos to trainer and beloved classmates.

will post some the birthday photos soon! gee.

kazumi's handy butterfly artwork. :D

i took ma monday's offday to do some "birthday shopping", a birthday treat for maself. :P retail therapy works all the time. hehe. had the lovely company of dear suki.

(p/s: she's only 15!)

bought abt 5 pcs of clothin, makeup (nt personal usage), accessories. the feeling's great man. hahaha. :D

thanks to ker for the birthday treat at night too! its cool to know that you made an effort to remember ma birthday this yr, mr 17nov! haha..

1st oct: happy birthday roderick! :)
2nd oct: happy birthday ryan! :) + happy birthday kazumi! :D
3rd oct: happy birthday mag! :)
5th oct: happy birthday vivien! :) + happy birthday chunann! :) + happy birthday beatrice! :)

i know there are even more october babies whose birthdays are comin up! heh heh. welcome welcome, lovely month! :)

ma birthday wish. (:

lookin forward!

2007-09-24T23:15:00.000+08:00

yay. i cant help lookin forward to next monday! its children's day and ma OFF DAYYYY. muahaha OFF DAY! HOLIDAY! :D

worklife at childcare has been manageable so far. i think kids are fantastic.. frm playgroup to primary sch. haha. i've spotted that few whom i love to disturb. yea, they're the so-called naughtier ones. tho they do and say silly things to make teachers angry, but.. i just find their mannerisms and thoughts so amusin. cute. (:

oh anyway. there was a last min assessment for makeup class last tues. trainer gave away a mystery gift as a reward..

deeply honoured. i will continue to work hard. (:

words couldnt express how thankful i was; granted me with something that i wasnt expectin to receive.. fyi, thats a A* tweezer! good stuff okay. (: (:

oh btw, i had a new haircut last monday. :D okay lah, i know thats really nth new. bah. feelin kinda retarded when i tk photos now. ma memory has been gettin worse since i started workin at praise. gosh. time flies, and theres just never-ending matters for you to handle.

i need the strength from You to carry on.. Lord, bring me thru.

kazumi the one-eyed monster.

2007-09-21T23:18:00.000+08:00

was on mc today. stayed home the whole day due to ma bee-stung lookin eyes. hahahaha. really lah! annoyingly painful and ugly. just one of the worst physical mishap that can ever happen to me. :(

itchy eyes every night, but with even itchier hands to rub them. can see the membrane-like structure in the eye gettin all crumpled up. blahhh. sorry.

and yes, missed a&p today too. rahhh.

ive so much work to do, yet i cant seem to focus. whats wronggggg!

btw, im lookin for female models for ma exam. VOLUNTEER ANYONE? :D trust that i'll do gd. its ma exammmmm! pretty plsssss..

amanda, the event emcee. (:

the makeup artistes. (:

since im said to be of one who has indifferent taste in style...

someone suggested that i shld come up with a wishlist for ma upcomin birthday because its quite hard to think of smthg that i would really fancy. i used to think comin up with a wishlist is quite a thick-skinned act, but not so for now. well, at least your beloved friends know what you're in need of and give you somethin that is v useful to you, and not some pretty white elephant.

the 1st two items can be found in kino, the last item is actually a huge white shoulder bag, with gold stripes and the adidas wording.

anw, dun feel obligated to buy anything if you are not ready to. its meant for ppl who are totally clueless in what to get for me.

afterall, its just a wishlist. (:

p/s: msg me if you interested in makin ma wishlist come true. i dun wanna end up being an owner of solely 10 "face forward" books. :D

love rainy mornings.

2007-09-16T16:57:00.000+08:00

love rainy mornings. love rainy days. cant believe i fell aslp on the bus this mornin, and actually missed the stop i was supposed to alight while on ma way to church.

been slpin really lil these few days. on weekdays, i'm leavin home before sunrise, reachin home way beyond sunset. anyhow, first day at work was pretty okay. rahh. guess it really requires alot of prayer. i reckon ma stay there wont be an easy one, and im not intendin to disclose reasons here.. still, the main issue isnt with children, or difficult children. no matter what, i pray for a heart to continue lovin these kids who requires the attention they never had.

i dun have much social life now. haa. but okay, i went for arty's POP on wed night (because bible study was cancelled for 2 wks). POP at night was kinda strange. and i seriously din know how they managed to march in the dark.

din really tk many photos. but i saw many friends in commando like aw, desmond, edwin, ah seng, sean's bro(rayner?), plus quite a few others. and others who went like sean and family, drewz, yeechen, yeeping, guanghong, yy, kaiwei plus darlinks. haa. cool. and now, i realised that i have quite a few common friends with art. haha.

3 mths flew by!

got to know that he has a v pleasant godsis too. but they really seemed like real siblings to me. not in terms of looks la, but can see that she really tks care of him.. anw, its not the typical secondary sch kinda godbro, godsis kinda thing. they've shared family ties..

oh man. gonna turn in early tonight. another rise&shine at 5.30am awaits.

and mr arthur ng, pls get your checkup asap!!

downpour of emotions!

2007-09-12T13:10:00.000+08:00

the followin would be a pretty lengthy entry.

ma temp contract with fairteck holdings ended yesterday. and lina joined me for the last day of sales at the pushcart. towards the end, i asked her.. "we'd have chance to work again right?"

"sure we do!" she replied.

that really made me smile and ma heart, a lil warmer. i thank God for blessin me with such nice ppl in ma life. somehow, it just reminds me of ma internship days, thankful for knowin ppl like chris, cally, shelby, sohchin, serene. woo! (:

hehe. wonder if they still have these with them..

yup i will miss rachel and lina, for sure.

i cant continue ma contract with them because i was led to serve in another area. so.. friday will mark ma first day @ praise. its not a well-paid job, given the workin hrs and committment. but to me, i'd see it as a way to bless a sister-in-christ who's in urgent need. moreover, i'd be workin with beloveds like carlene and aunty jasmine! the experience im gonna get will beat the pay itself. (:

so here am i, on ma well-deserved one day break, pourin out all thoughts and feelings.

anticipation failed today. im stranded home now because im havin v bad sore eyes agn. seriously duno whats wrong man. i din even rub it the night bfore, yet it just got so bad this mornin. felt so sorry to have cancelled a meet-up with a fren whos enlistin really soon.

***

ma day ended off on a low note last night. after class, i rushed off w/o sayin goodbye to anyone. i just felt that i wanted to get home asap.

it all happened durin the NTU hall 13's pageant last fri. eileen (who was previously from TP), happened to be one of the contestants for the pageant. and i was so glad to have bumped into a familiar face!

"lezlie!! shes ma poly friend, eileen! we were of the same batch!" i exclaimed with excitement. you can imagine the kinda smile i was havin on ma face man. literally a :D

but i was crestfallen upon the response he gave. "oh isit? ppl in uni liao leh. then what are you doin here?"

ha-ha. i din know how to react you know. but after a quick pause, in a jokingly manner, i said "wah teacher, so now you're ashamed of me alr huh?"

the silence that followed was freakin awkward.

im feelin pretty overwhelmed by the emotions and all when i've decided upon this career direction. so after class, the girls raised the issue up with ma trainer agn while i was asked to lock up the makeup lab. when i entered the office, i passed him the keys and signed ma attendance. then jenn said, "see lah cher, you hurt a meek and fragile heart."

all i heard from him was, "she shld be proud of her own decision what!"

they continued by sayin "at different age, ppl see things and think differently........"

at that moment, i didnt think that i shld stay any longer, so i left w/o a word.

on ma way back, thoughts bombarded ma mind..

"proud of ma own decision? of course i am!" the only thing i din understand was, am i that deservin of sucha trainer who destructs a student's morale? so far, i dun remember anythin he said that is especially encouragin to me.

im only 20. i gave up furtherin ma studies, a campus life, ma social life, to go on a pursuit with so many obstacles i've to cross, be it financially or moral support from family. i even have to battle within maself, to ensure that things doesnt endanger my relationship with God..

i feel sorry for ma friends because i can hardly meet up with them. i miss all of them, but whenever they ask me out, what else could i say possibly besides sorry?

ma 1st and 2nd halves of each day.

feelin so tired...

yet each time when i see that i've done a good makeup on a person, i cant help but praise God for givin me an ability like this! still i thank God for those ppl he sent who encouraged me along this rough and patchy road. thanks lovelies.

thanks to you for even bother readin this lenghty entry, up to this very point. (: i know on whom i shall depend on, so feel happy for me.. your well-wishes and encouragements would do me just fine! (:

gee. power of long shutter.. (x

what would i be, if not for You?

sentimentals day + keong's 21st

2007-09-10T23:31:00.000+08:00

sat was a much-awaited sentimentals' outing! finally a good catchup before david goes botak. it was a pity our dear mr tan sernming couldnt join us (due to his sprained ankle). tsk.

when the 4 of us got settled down at our dinin place, we giggled to ourselves, as we started imaginin the very same scene 10yrs down the road. some things just never change...

nana said yy changed; from her taste in guys, to her current "out-goingness", to her physical appearance. i din have much to say. all i can see is that she seems to be enjoyin her life in NTU v much. its such coincidence that she's stayin in hall 11! the whole bunch of hall 11 peeps whom i met thru work not too long ago; kudos to lester. and.. yy and liping are room-mates! coolness.

nana's feelin stressed up over never-ending assignements and projects in SMU. but well, i believe she'll do just fine. she isnt the runner-up in our marketing cohort for nth! jiayou na! (:

david's pretty much the same. he's still the entertainer of the grp, the joker, and the one who gets all of us "lame-struck". lol. he'd be joinin the policeforce soon. i think he shld be the lamest police alive.

hehe. shot of nostalgia. but yy's no longer the ah dai!

the trio, loves. (:

sentimentals 4/5!

"the bickerers"...

... and the "innocent parties"

future mr policeman! (plus yy's handkiss)

haha. i took random shots while they were decidin where to go for dinner.. and since stevenlim happened to be one of our random topics that popped outta nowhere. inspiration came.. :D

(thats what i heard from yy. we so happened to witness steven lim pounce on poor girls walkin by the streets of orchard when we were on our way to meet na.)

so verdict is: SEE HIM, JUST RUN!!

hahahahaha. i cant stop laughin at yy's cheekok. but the thing is i cant disclose much abt cheekok either. for those who remembers the character, cheekok, in gao3 xiao4 xing2 dong4. good for you! yy's eyecandy resembles just like him! hahahha.

picture purrrrfect: sentimentals.

***

part 2 was keong's 21st.

we almost couldnt recognise keong in his current size! thanks to ns, he lost abt 13-14kg. lol.

he smiles the same. (:

keong and maself.

the company: yy, maself, keong, yc, denise.

our marketing fun. miss keong and his marketing oei!

the much fitter keong. (:

yy's heart ached when she saw the weight keong lost. but i honestly thought keong looks gd now.

anyway, fri would be ma first day @ praise student childcare. so pls do keep me in prayer yea. i recently picked up a book from church's library, titled "i kissed dating goodbye", by joshua harris. hoho. really good boooook. after readin the first few pages, i just knew i had to read it thru. its a book highly recommendable to all youngsters.. shall share more abt it the next time! (:

loves, kazumi

smoozeee week!

2007-09-06T00:09:00.000+08:00

lol. sellin smooze is quite fun!

like.. a santarina givin out free samples, seein delighted faces enjoyin their newfound icy lowfat desert. :D BUT carryin the samples from office to work isnt really that fun. yea arm muscles are back! to think i stopped trainin fer so long. cheh.

met up with jimmy on tues after work, bfore makeup class. woo! so nice to have someone carryin the icebox for me after work. *smirks

curls? again?

the entertainer, jimmyboy.

hair class tmr.. homework done last wk, but trainer had smthg on. so i dismantled the whole thing, and i hvn got time to redo it agn. )x the french twist took me 2 hrs okay. kept havin many failed attempts.. i mean the final one i did (that was ready to be submitted) wasnt that satisfactory to me either.. ):

introducin ma new mate:

dollyhead; minmin. grey eyes! like me. (: (for now) and i styled her hair to be like mine that day. lol.

workin life and being a part-time student is seriously.... no life. feelin so worn-out! i need a breather. like when?? ):

im just wishin for a day of couch-potatoin. or start scrapbookin...

fix your eyes on final destiny; over things that are of eternal value.

mixed.

2007-09-01T21:36:00.000+08:00

friday was yayness becus i finally watched "secret"! you know its just one of the movies that will get you jaded for quite some time, the feelin of being immersed in fantasy? lol. in short, the movie's great, for i just cant stop thinkin abt it, solvin the mysteries that took place in the amazin plot. indeed, jaychou never fail to amaze me. :D

its a love/hate relation towards ridiculously romantic shows. they are just so unrealistic okay, merely things that wont happen real-life. yet the irony is, ppl love the feelin of livin in fantasies. the thing is, such incidents are only suited to take place in shows. personally, i cant even take such mushy stuff when it happens to me real-life; somehow, it feels too unreal. *hair stands*

so its time to be zap back to reality! walking in His light..

*concentration, concentration. this is a game of concentration.*

time for photos!

er, this was actually quite some time back. the trueblue goth look. :D (partners: jenn & maself, huimei & anna)

this is traditional indian makeup! jenn and i were partners agn. :D

the bridal show that i mentioned previously.. model brides, makeup artistes, trainer and designer, yvonne tan. (:

lil yishu. winner of some pageant title, cant remember what.

adooooorable right. she can pose damn well loh.

muahaha. just yesterday! at tamagotchi fair. :D uber cuteeee. mimichi and flowertchi are irresistably kawaii!! i still have the kuchipatchi keychain from pongie on ma camera. :D

hahahahaha! KILL ME LAH. just love it can.

ANNOUNCEMENTS! :D

1. rejoice rejoice! i've got 3 more new sisters-in-christ last sunday! (x

2. adara pushcart's gonna be converted to SMOOZE fruit ice! (i still love adara anyway! honestly i dont think educatin ppl abt the pdt is boring IF the person's really interested. owells, too bad not many are. wait till swa-kus know the power of coconut virgin oil man. im seein too many ppl on streets with unkempt hair and dehydrated skin. the simple solution is adara! experience the goodness yourselves. still not convinced? bleah, you dont know what you're missin.)

3. i've got lobang for shirt printing. havin problems sourcin for suppliers who only print shirts in small batches?? fret not. just tag/sms me if you wanna know more. its even possible if you wanna custom-make your very own tee. NO MINIMUM QUOTA at all. (:

well well, i cant believe the contract's ending. as much as i wanna continue workin with lina and rachel.... i know i just have to move on to something that i've passion for. ah. life's bittersweet.

excitement, randomly typed.

2007-08-25T00:25:00.000+08:00

yay. internet's back.

thanks to this silly wireless thing that isnt workin properly, i've to plug in and surf the net in the livin room. (just beside my collection of pretty shoes! haha. not smelly lah okay.)

feelin kinda relieved now. settled with craft ideas for GSF.

and yay! i've got another assignment on from sch tmr! :D some NTU hall pageant event. last week's assignment (bridal show event; for yvonne creative) was an eyeopener for me man. i got my hands laid on the face of miss singapore universe 2006 winner, genecia luo. wahahha. dead gorgeous. :D

will post pics soon!

haha. im feelin quite excited for arty too. he's POPin in 2 weeks time. jungle hat jungle hat!

im enjoyin class much more recently cos there's just so much laughter. thanks to jennifer and her series of 881 jokes! 1, 2, 3, 4. 2, 2, 3, 4. okay i know i have to watch this show sooner or later.

hoho watchin secret nex friday! cant wait cant wait.

today was ma "last day" at leedental. i'd be on course leave fer 10 weeks. ): yea. will miss dr lee and beloved colleagues!! booo. bah its alrite. 10 weeks will fly by.

hair class is fun, but kinda difficult. i will work harder! ):

perhaps, maybe, most likely.. i'd be workin in a student care centre! teachin pri sch kids and handlin playgroups! woohoo!

lol. and so.. that was ma very raw list of random updates! will blog more next time (with more photos! :D) stay tuned!

am very thankful for each small change i see in me. praise the Lord!

His promise

2007-08-13T21:58:00.000+08:00

Dont be afraid, for I am with you. Do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you. I will help you. I will uphold you with my victorious right hand.

Isaiah 41:10

yay. strength for tmr! (:

starsearch 2007

2007-08-13T18:20:00.000+08:00

gosh. jerry and priscilla got into top20 for starseach 2007!

jerry! amazing lah.. hahha. no wonder i hvn heard from him for a long time. the intro titled him as "the unlikely star" but i think his talents gonna prove them wrong man. honestly, i din know he could act or was interested in actin.. i only knew he had big dreams in the entertainment circle, esp singin. (and he really can sing okay.)

i dont think pris can recognise me if we were to each other on the streets. she was ma secondary sch senior back then. (and i think i looked v diff then too.) but i actually gotta know her thru prefectorial board. (siewmei, patricia's batch) woo. she surely changed alot!

haha. no wonder i've been seein pictures of them together in jerry's f/s. so this explains why. all the best! (:

i hope i am being over-sensitive

2007-08-12T23:25:00.000+08:00

we're driftin..

the telepathy's gone.
the mutual understandin's gone.

i suddenly felt like i dont really know you afterall.
when i shared ma burdens with you;
you never wanted to share any with me,
not knowin i was constantly @ standby mode for you.

sustainin a relationship. is it supposed to be like the vicious cycle as illustrated below?

phase 1: strangers
phase 2: the usual HIs and BYEs
phase 3: friends
phase 4: hang-out mates
phase 5: "chopsticks" (ppl feel smthg's amiss when either one of them is missin)

and slowly, as this pair of buddies get so used to each other's presence, they started takin things for granted, forgettin how they first got bonded together; the tears shed, the warm hugs, the sunshine smiles, the upliftin encouragements.. where did that spirit of togetherness go to?

maybe its just me. im not used to your glum face, not used to the way you talk, not used to your negligence, not used to your casualness. i dont know, call me sensitive. i never liked guessin games, so if smthg's goin wrong, pls feel free to talk to me.

to a person so dear to me, i can only tell you that i'd always be here for you. God bless.

its okay, God's with you.

2007-08-10T20:47:00.000+08:00

ma favourited sunshine jing.

two brothers of mine. (:

in their own worlds.

splishy splashed feets..

sandy smiley sun by ma feet.

kids are bigger camwhorers than me!

just some pics frm yesterday's outin with church youths. fellowship was excellent. (:

cycled @ eastcoast park. sang praises. telematches. sandy play by the beach. SIA club-ed; gym, pool, badminton! BBQ-ed dinner @ seabreeze road thereafter. how could i ask for more? :P

***

i din really had a smooth-sailin day today. struggles are inevitable, yet they are tough to handle at times. but like what i said to maself: "its okay, God's with you."

its true. cryin heals. cryin releases. cryin is a God-given ablity! i found the answer to why im so proned to tears; i realised God was ma answer to love, to a new life, to a farewell of brokenhearted teenagehood. in sad memories, i find no sorrows. in sad memories, i only feel God's comfort and see God's glory.

thus, i wanna be continually strengthened by Him!

"As you focus your time and thoughts on God, it becomes clear what He wants you to do. The confusion doesnt seem so great because He is the God of order and peace. Life is less confusing when you realise He truly is in control. How wonderful to know that when you are confused, God has the answer. Just ask."

- TouchPoints for Troubled Times. (special thanks to jing for this book! (: )

just some self-introspection

2007-08-06T22:42:00.000+08:00

work is so monotonous and i absolutely dread it. ):

the monday, tuesday to mustafa. and the wed, thurs, fri to raffles. tuition lessons, dental job, bible class, makeup classes. (hair class and A&P class is comin!) i think im losin the stamina.. sigh. i wan the contract to end soon. and i wanna get a higher-pay parttime job till jan next yr!

btw, i'll prolly go for the international certification for professional makeup artistry. which is why i still intend to do parttime till i officially complete ma education pursuit in makeup.

rahh. from the time i graduated frm tp till now. i grew to learn more abt maself, and lessons in life:

- i dont like sales job (but i have to take them cos they're too readily available)
- i like doin makeup on ppl
- i need to train greater patience
- practisin greater faith
- avoidin gossips (in an "all-aunties" environment)
- sayin only whats necessary
- plannin finances (esp when im jugglin with so many commitments at the same time)

i so wanna go states with ma church ppl. its a once in a lifetime opportunity. but honestly, i rather seek for God's will to be done. if its a yes from Him, i pray that He'd not let me face any lack. if its a no, i know that there'd be better plans for me ahead.

meanwhile, i really pray for a career path that would really allow me to uphold ma service towards God, rewarded by a comfortable band of income to feed ma dad and contribute to the home's monthly finances. and of course, one job that brings abt tremendous self-satisfaction.

tho i still dont really know whats ahead of me now.. i believe God has already gotten the pathway laid for me! :D and havin said that would mean, "practisin greater faith!"

its so good to be in the Lord..

happy birthday derek! :)

2007-08-01T01:10:00.000+08:00

haha! i've just incorporated interestin links at the very end of the right column. do drop by if they interest you. (dont worry, i dont have a tracker to track who visited..)

p/s: the first link has attractive deals. and the facelift one is very cool.

been feelin lethargic these days. guess its the lack of slp.. but to be honest, it was a choice made not to turn in so early. if only i could have dinner as early as 6pm everyday. then i prolly wouldnt have this problem; i just cant fall aslp after a meal thats 3-4 hrs before bedtime.

strange, i know. thats one of the main reasons why i dont supper. i would be like so awake physically, yet feelin sleepy mentally because everyone else is slpin! UNLESSSS. im super tired. :D

some random photos!

>> snapped in may. a display @ one of the puzzle shops.. aww. cute.

>> hehe! doudou in jun. time flies man. its august now!

>> it really wasnt me havin fetish for green. but i guess cute stuff always just so happen to be in green!

>> hahaha. yummy smiley.

bahh. im thinkin of puttin on braces when i have the money.. NOT for vanity sake (because i quite like my smile.) but for better maintanance when i get older next time. some may think havin crooked teeth is cute.. but.. you know unreachable gaps are easy residential places for plaque? :(

aiya. its just somethin that came on and off ma mind these few weeks lah. of course! bottomline is, i still dont have the financial means (course fees and exam fees are drivin me nuts!) AND i am very much afraid of the pain. wisdom tooth extraction awaits.. :( :( :(

like as tho ma face isnt fat enough.

i think im lookin older! *chants im only 20!*

hola its 1st august!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, DWARFIE DEREK! :D
enjoy your day.. and im sorry i cant be at your party! smile k, cos kazumi still remembers!

night class has started! :D

2007-07-25T23:11:00.000+08:00

yay its mid week! two more days to TGIF!

schedule's packed and pretty tirin. from now, i'd be workin at mustafa every mon and tues, 12pm - 7pm and 12pm - 6pm respectively.. i totally dread the regulations there man. uber strict and rigid. stupid procedures, 100% absurd.

the crankiest one is: no bfs allowed. (i know I dont have one but ya, just laugh at it man!) sounds much more like rules and regulations from a maid agency right?

okay. enough of that borin place. bloggin to "de-stress". well, at least.. its in a shoppin centre, so irritants can no longer smoke near me! :D (unlike at far east sq, exhaust pipes are all ard man.)

but one thing's still the same: tikopeks exist everywhere. hate those lustful stares. *shudders* yes. pls do continue to keep me in prayer. God has somehow taken the one big tiko outta ma sight, the one who caused me great distress and nightmares.. no kiddin. ma mornings are normal agn over at far east sq now. *phew* thank God.. (and thanks to those who prayed for me!)

>> 2 weeks back at Central's toilet. :D

lol. clarke quay's Central is great shoppin place! went there on the 2 consecutive sundays. woohoo. intended to get ma corrective concealer palette from "the makeup artist shop", but to no avail. the thing was outta stock, plus ma first shoppin experience there wasnt v pleasant because i was being attended to by a not-very-professional salesperson.

but thank God i had good company that evenin. hehe! :p

>> the mini cube box! and thats a new notebook for maself. (to jote down daily events and things to do. tsk. extra storage space for ma brain..)

>> yay. cute stuff for the trioooo. the fact is.. we do miss karen. :/

>> yummilicious goodies from japan! theres a shop there sellin all sorts of japan-imported food products. shiok.. and the greentea pocky is heavenly lah! :D

i bumped into kerson twice on 2 different days, while i was rushin for work. thus we decided to meet up and do some catchin up on that monday night, since it happened to be his sudden offday. and for the very first time, i stepped into bedok princess' cinema, "the best cinema" (as quoted by ker) and we caught a movie, invisible target. starrin nicholas tse, shawn yue and jaycee chan. 3.5/5 stars.

owells. i guess action films arent really for me after all. the show isnt that bad, but all the fightin, bombin and killin really makes ma hair stand. (and er, cover ma eyes)

>> @ the coffeeshop below ma place. its been ages since we last met.. (:

woohoo! yay! night class has commenced! studyin psalms.. :D theres finally somethin for me to really look forward to every wed night now! rev teo said somethin tonight that really left me with a deep impression..

"how can you actually tell if theres something wrong with a christian?"
"when he/she loses joy."

for the lost joy, you'd realise that peace will, sadly, silently leave you too.

that was like somethin that struck me most tonight. it turned out to be sucha vivid reminder for maself. people tend to get too busy with their lives, lettin each day pass like how they think it should, without rememberin to give genuine thanks to God!

its just so true.. okie for now, just a cranky pic to end off this entry! hehe! :p

this is what i do when "exhaust pipes" are activated near me..

kazumi loves. (:

urban pulse

2007-07-21T22:22:00.000+08:00

heh heh. sorry for the very irregular blogging.

reckon im gonna be busier startin next week! but i'll try to blog when i've the time, inspiration and pictures. :D haha. i guess postin pictures always work. but ive gotta admit its one of the reasons that make me want to update less often. tho resizin and enhancin photos are fast, doin such for many photos isnt really so.. yet the irony is, i feel like somethin's missin if ma entry were to be only filled with words..

oh nvm me. just too tired.

on the sunday two weeks back, i went to lina's (adara colleague) photoshoot to help her do makeup @ her friend's studio; the colourful faces (www.thecolourfulfaces.com/) okay basically, her friend is lookin for a freelance makeup artiste, as and when needed. so i was there supposingly to show her ma skills. haha! kinda screw it up. because i displayed ma lack of confidence, tho i know i shldnt have been so. im not really scared that i cant do well, im just too stressed up by the fact that some pro is starin at me doin a makeup on her friend. btw i think lina's friend, lisa, is really cool. she's both a professional makeup artiste and a photographer! *awed* very talented lady.

i got to know new friends too. after that few hrs of hangin ard in the studio, i found lester (a freelance photographer there) to be quite a nice guy too. i guess i talked to him more because i realised he was previously from TP too! moreover, he's a brother in christ. (: he even got me in to work for this tamil awards event @ expo last sat, and in turn i got to know quite a few of his ntu hall mates. one of them even psycho-ed me to go for their FOC. i seriously would love to man, too bad ive got work.. ):

haha. anyways, i was helpin over @ this dance event, urban pulse, organised by SMU. pretty cooool. jazz, hiphop, modern, breakin etc. and heres a load of photos comin! *beep beep*

there were 4 types of makeup we had to do, but so far, ive only done the bronzey look and smoky eyes, plus basic makeup on guys. you'd be seein photos of some of the models i've drawn on. and i'll try to recall somethin abt them!

DAY 1:

>> one of the posters..

>> classmate jennifer; blissfully married. shes only 3 yrs older than me oh.

>> mummy, myself, anna. blessed with v nice classmates. (:

>> ma tools. :D

>> shes very nice! a SMU alumni who rushed down from work, and i know she works in a bank! haha.

>> oooo. she's a thai, a yr younger than me. outgoin. i like. :D

>> their self-cut and altered top!

DAY 2:

>> huimei, my classmate! weee. i love her too. she was so amazed by ma self-shot skill. LOL.

>> anna @ work. (:

>> weee. love mummy too! we call her mummy because her eldest daughter is alr 18 this yr. (you can never guess her age!)

>> enjoyin every moment! *beams*

>> i did makeup on him for the 2 days! a bboy.. also an alumni, 26 this yr. 10yrs of breakin leh. gosh.

>> i din know she was so pretty until i saw the photo. :X but ya i dun recall much abt her actually. she didnt want to talk to me. ):

>> ahaha. seemingly shy guy. or maybe he didnt want to talk to me too. ):

>> ahhaa. this guy. did makeup for him for the past two days too. he's not indian okay. he's indonesian, speaks totally like a typical indo. and he was the event emcee!

>> these 3 guys were seriously jokers.. lol. the one in gray was my model. haha!

okie thats all i have for now. hope you enjoyed! :D

oh yes! this was the twiggy makeup i did for class few days back. SPECIAL THANKS TO EMOTICON TWIN, JACQ! :D (will post somemore photos of twiggy makeup after jacq sends me!)

tc all! loves. (:

"worry is an indication that we think God cannot take care of us."

hands granted by the grace of God..

2007-07-04T16:21:00.000+08:00

i thought that the followin may be quite interestin..

anyways i decided to practise makeup last sat, together with anna, before my appointment with karen. i was pretty determined to succeed in tapin anna's eyelids beautifully, makin them look equal.. not that she dont have double eyelids. but the thing is, she has double on one side, triple on the other.

this is how anna's smilin eyes look like:

i took 40 min to do the full basic makeup fer her.. but i think ma effort paid off well.. here goes! :D it wasnt v easy tryin to catch the upper lid tho. lol.

>> alrite. it was ma best fer a first try doin tapin on others..

>> hee. glammm. :D (minimal blusher as requested.)

random photos!

>> colin's lil sister.. super cute right! like japanese wawa (doll)

>> mischievous clarence; colin's younger brother. the bruises on his left cheek were caused by a great fall at the playground. =.=

>> my lazy student, colin. he's a good source to train one's patience..

>> bread shoppin with dad; i just love cute bread and pastries! so happy looking! ^^

i was readin the book: learnin at the crossroads again. i can only thank God deep within me. whenever you are in pain, let peace fill your heart.

i can only seek for Your will to be done; for only You know whats best for me..

glad to be back!

2007-06-29T22:16:00.001+08:00

gee. feels good to be typin at this space again. at the same time, it has been a good thing too, fer me to get a lil more "detached" from the cyberspace. its been too routine already.

weee. life is fufilling so far. a salesperson, a tuition teacher and a dental nurse; a makeup student; a servant of God.

feels different to have graduated. cos right now, ma only possible mode of communication is prolly thru bloggin, fer dear friends out there who are concerned how well kazumi is survivin. haha. :)

>> updates on makeup class

just had ma assesment on tues (26/6). got kyuri (chee jiayi) as ma model. i think i fared okay.. well, above jia's natural good looks, i think i made her a pretty bride that day! yup, ma task was to do a bridal makeup!

yes i know you're excited to know how she looks. but pls dont get disappointed if you think you prefer jia w/o makeup, or that you think she looks better w/o makeup. owells, its subjective. but on a personal note, i think she looked gorgeous. :D

>> the artiste, the model. so outshone by jia the celeb can. lol.

>> she couldnt stop whinin abt how thick the makeup was.. but sigh. i think you guys lookin at this proll think its not thick enough right.

>> shes so damn blithed when brendan called. :X

>> the "why-cannot-ar" face. hahaha.

i think anna and andre did pretty good makeup too.. i really thank God that i have a classmate like anna. at least whenever we get very discouraged or low-morale, we use God's word to comfort each other.. and i know that im not alone walkin on this patchy pathway, but anna too.

>> God knows us inside out.

still on the makeup class side. on thurs we did periodic makeup; the 50s. uber tough i tell you. ): but once again, though makeup artistes are not magicians or cosmetic surgeons, i still think the power of makeup is so great!

transformin a plain lookin girl like this..

into...

a mega-icon in the 50s!

wahahha. but bah. if you dont have eye for details, you prolly cant visualise the overall marilyn monroe look. but for the artsy ppl.. you can imagine this makeup. together with short blonde curls. basically, marilyn monroe's style was the out-of-bed look; sleepy. droopy eyes, archy eyebrows and very full lip. btw, the makeup was demostrated on me by mr leslie.

it was especially tough to draw on me because i dont even have visible eye sockets. lol. he's really something..

p/s: look at the lip part closely. hahaha. you'll see how much "volume" he added. i felt like ruhua the whole time with that lip okay. i wonder how marilyn monroe survived with it.

thats what i've been goin thru in ma makeup class. seems fun right! haha. it requires alot more practice than just the fun we get. still, am lovinnnn it. you'll prolly see another v serious side of me each time im doin a makeup job.

>> updates on part-time sales job

adara is really an amazingly dear product. i dont say that because im sellin it lah. but its really effective. its the first time i see maself being so confident of a product.

in a nutshell, adara is made of pure coconut virgin oil. an organic potion with no chemicals added, no high-heat treatment. a wonder for waterproof makeup removals and moisturing purposes (for face, body, hair) teehee.

you can visit http://www.sambugroup.com/html/pdtcon_adara.html for more product knowledge if you're interested.

so as i had ma fair share of joy sharin this amazin product with strangers for the past 2 weeks, i got to work with this jiejie who constantly stuffs me with good food. twas a great terror.

her name's vivien. 6 yrs older than me. open-minded. talks about anythin under the sun. resembles apple hong. and we're alike in quite a few ways..

>> her last day of work. but i guess its not the last day of our partnership.. haha. the pink voodoo was a pair. :)

opportunities seems to be comin but i am still quite cautious.. im speakin on the spiritual aspect, if you know what i mean. hmm. still prayin that God opens a way thats truely for me, and a place where He wanna use me in.

p/p/s: sigh. its great difficulty conversin with ppl whom do not share same faith as you; the indifferent perspectives and whatnots. christians are not even called to be aloof amongst ppl. i do understand that nonchristians are tryin v hard to understand the christian faith, yet i personally feel that its not all abt how much you wanna understand, but how much are you willin to accept.

weeeeeeee. this has been a pretty long entry. to satisfy questions like "what have you been doin lately?" etc etc.

this is the kinda schedule that will be goin on till mid sept.

mon: work 11am - 3pm/ tuition @ night
tues: work 11am - 3pm/ makeup class @ night
wed: work 11am - 3pm/ tuition @ night
thurs: work 11am - 3pm/ makeup class @ night
fri: work 11am - 3pm/ dental job @ night
sat: mornings are usually for zingo trainings or dental job. evenins are for church.
sun: church.

well i do actually have loose hours in between. after 3pm, before 7pm/8pm that kinda thing. so i seldom do meet up with friends. i usually use the time to do more readups and study makeup tips. but if you think you want to meet up with me, feel free to gimme a call okie. :)

>> a haircut 2 weeks back. :P

>> short hair! :D

haha. no lah its not. just one of ma cranky idea for new haircuts. hope that was enough to fill you up fer the short hiatus. tc all. loves. :)

back, recharged.

2007-06-13T16:53:00.001+08:00

i do not know if recharged was the right word used but anyway.. the retreat was a blast for me, spiritually. gained wisdomful insights from a passage of love, corinthians13. easy to understand, but it sure takes a lifetime to learn. plus a lil more knowledge and insight gained from the sharin of Mid-east and the bible.

worships in retreats often reminds me of the worship image in heaven. the joy and peace it brings is indescribable. and praise God, that's what we're gonna do for eternal!

i like depth. words of depth, ppl of depth, expressions of depth. but all in truth. which means... profound phrases makes no meanin to me if there is no truth in it.

gee. today's alr the 13th. many of ma friends are enlistin v soon. haha. if you're one of them and happen to be readin this right now, then PLS TAKE GOOD CARE OF YOURSELF AND COME BACK IN ONE PIECE OK!

jiayou baldies.. (:

deeply encouraged by elder tay's yrs of servanthood. im so thankful that death to christians are NOT THE END! amen.

re-aloha

2007-06-04T18:51:00.000+08:00

hello hello.

im just feelin that i shld blog somethin here before it becomes forgotten, for both me and you (anyone who's readin!)

yay! im so glad. retreat's comin and i've gotten maself a temporary sales job, requirin me only to work on WEEKDAYS, 11am - 3pm. :D

made ma way down to balmoral plaza this mornin.. got interviewed by 2 nice ladies! initially, i felt i may not get the job becus they were still expectin other candidates. (machiam for some permanent executive post right! the whole time there, i felt it was so too! lol.) but 10 minutes after i left the office, the job agent called and asked me if im keen to take up the job!

wahhaha. thats like so OF COURSE right. if not i go fer interview for what! :P but okay lah, jk. the agent is a nice person too! wee.. i can hold on to church commitments, attend makeup classes, and continue zingo trainings! man thats so God-given!

i will be away from 5th (that is tomorrow) to 9th! church retreat on 1st 3 days and GHFers' adventure thereafter!

miss me! :)

hehe! thankyou! i got a handmade teru! :D

time to move on

2007-05-28T23:21:00.000+08:00

im fine... im alright.. thanks to all who showed so much concern.

have been slpin lil lately. and it was a long day fer me. but havin said that, i still love ma dental job! the people there are so nice. i even told angie that i have no intentions to quit, even if i were to get a full-time perm job.

haha. but well, who will know what lies in the future. its just a wish to stay at a nice workin environment. haha. tho i think i like the place, its still wise fer me to stay there as a part-timer. becus..... i just feel that i cant see too much of "gruesome" stuff. gosh, first patient of the day today: wisdom tooth extraction operation.

freak gross i tell you. slice out your gums and pull that biggest tooth of yours outta your mouth. muhahah. thank God i was asked to pick up calls instead. lol.

i started personifyin mouths as construction sites fer dentists. dont ask me why.

btw, i have a new student now. p2, named colin. lol. he plays maple and DS! but hates to study chinese and english. oh man. i need wisdom from God to teach!

alrite! kazumi's info bite for today! im gettin addicted to flossin ma teeth! and i get quite excited when it bleeds.

if you think im a saddist, you are oh-so-wrong.

if your gum bleeds when you floss or brush, continue the act. because the bleedin actually tells you that your gums arent v healthy bcus plague is startin to attack the gums/teeth. so if you dont do proper oral cleanin by removin those plague, the walls of the gums will soon break down, and your teeth will start to get shaky and eventually, it'll drop out!

myth #1: "flossin creates gap and small holes between the teeth." this is wrong. the holes are created by plague, not the poor floss who aided you in removin those nasty plague!

lalala. so floss k. smile when it bleeds. becus its still not to late fer you to realise!

angie told me to pass this msg to ma family. but ma dad's wearin dentures, so i ought to pass to readers instead! hehe.

in His time..

2007-05-26T01:19:00.000+08:00

last mornin at 3 plus.. i was still awake, talkin to linggie regardin some stuff.

but never did i know, at this v period... someone left me, forever.

ma 15 yr-old cousin passed away. dad called me at 7 plus while i was still in bed, cryin as he broke the news to me. shocking news i know. i was very taken aback by it too. felt really blank the entire day, at home, thru work. until i reached his funeral place, i called one of ma sis in christ, then i started crying.

i knew i needed to talk to someone, tho i made a prayer right after the tele-conversation with dad this mornin; that God is still takin charge and that qiang has left in His time.. i cried becus.. after feelin jaded fer so long. i came to realise he's really gone.. as in i will never ever get to see him agn. not even in heaven..

there at the funeral were idols, paper money, huge paper house, everything in paper. but what did they actually meant?

all of us were sad, but so what..

in Your time, in Your hand, in Your will..

my graduation..

2007-05-24T22:33:00.000+08:00

graduation pics; taken on 22nd may. (:

>> my twin!

>> yea i meant that bear.. hehe. a gift from the sisters! same color code somemore!

>> yay. karen and jingting. thanks fer attendin ma grad ceremony; thanks fer everything too. :D

>> proud to be a graduand from TP marketing!

>> the charmin course manager; dr anold tan. he still remembers ma name! HAHAHAHA.

>> fellow coursemates! hong, eliz, laymin, maself, teck. (:

>> the dale, the chip! chip & dale! *pose*

>> best proj mates in yr 2. we are so proud of edwinaaaaa~ the silver medalist! :D

>> serene, juan, maself, jess. coursemates whom i only got closer to when we were in yr 3.. better late then never. (:

>> officially graduated!

ma two sisters suggested that we shld go somewhere else to take more photos of me in graduation robe. lol. and chosen spot was... esplanade!

>> jingting and maself. (:

>> loveeee you two. (x

>> this pic is like so, "weeeeeee freeedom!" hahaha. or maybe not. its the harrypotterish-lookin me showin some magic; makin ma blog url float above ma hand.

>> jing looks glammm here. *winkwink*

and so we.. ate yummy yummy porridge and jing's fav goreng pisang, went esplanade to take photos, suntec window-shoppin, starbucks and more photos along the way. thanks fer the wonderful day! ^^

>> sisters in christ!

still prayin fer a path ahead.. but in any case, im glad to have graduated. at least i must thank God that i need not stay back fer another semester havin to retake failed modules. tho i haven seen any Zs in ma transcript.....

hmm. lets stand on the more positive side and say, at least i dun have any Ds! haha. okay pls just lemme console maself a lil pls. shh.

in Your guidance i seek, in Your will i trek.

teach me how to love.

2007-05-21T18:14:00.001+08:00

pls tell me do i really have to lose maself just because theres someone out there who's so insensible, so young, so naive, so childish, wanting to be like me?

when will this ever end.. im so sick of bearin all these when non of these should have been ma fault.

the fact is that there is nth i can do to stop her. neither can you guys stop me from being the jasmine i always am, when i wasnt even wrong in the first place. you people just never knew how much i've always been wanting to influence her in a positive way. but why not you ppl acknowledge the nature in her, before cautionin me of what to do?!

personal grooming, wanting to look good, was never wrong, so she did make it wrong for me in this case. is that so? even if i were to be disfigured one day, do you think she'll continue look up to me? THINK pls. im helpless as you all can be, and i care for her like how you guys care for her as well.

Lord, pls teach me how to love again..

p/s: just needed a place to vent out unreasonable frustrations. dont ask me more abt it. thanks.

R project

2007-05-19T13:32:00.000+08:00

R project 07 was fun! :D

its actually this fashion runway show done by RJC (yea, you got it. raffles jc) students, to raise funds fer one of the charitable organisations (specifically fer eating disorders i think). and they actually designed their own fashion apparels! some of them were really really nice. totally breaks the sterotyped perception (that they are mostly geeks! hehe!) on these elite school students!

splash (a cosmetic brand) was one of the event's sponsors, and they actually had this collaboration with UBI, engagin the students' help in doing makeup! :D

it was damn fun lah! love creative makeup! (though it was pretty tirin; havin to bend alot due to the lousy chairs and horrible lightings in their dance studio.) still, am hopin there'd be more of such events to come!

the photos you see are the models i've done on, and basic eye makeup on a guy. (but nth v special, so i din take a photo of him.) as seen, the makeup were quite dramatic, but they'll look v good on stage, with all the strong lightings and all. i think the model with the tube top looks eurasian after all the makeup!

but sorry, lemme digress a lil. rjc has quite a few eyecandies! hahaha. (trust kazumi's taste. i seldom have eyecandies myself.) hmm perhaps, i went with a mental block that i wont be seein any. oh wells.

anyways, they're only like 1 or 2 yrs younger than me? lol. they were damn surprised that im 20 this yr. BECAUSE, im only known as a makeup artiste to them, not just some student of a beauty school. hahaha.

"yea im 20 this yr. just graduated from temasek poly."
"oh wow! thats damn cool!"

FASHION MAKEUP. I LIKE.

:D

2007-05-14T01:16:00.000+08:00

alrighty. this is a update upon request. hahaha. nah. actually, theres just nth much i could blog about or update on.

anyways.. ma week had been great. besides ma dental job, i also took up some data-entry job with pong and steph on the 9th and 10th. woooo. i've always enjoyed workin with friends. but sadly, i dont usually have such opportunity all the time.

>> stephie, maself and angel (the humongous stupong). pls lah. you need a singapore map badly.

>> pong and steph!

>> sweet thing accompanied me to kill some time before ma class! :)

>> really huge bananas.

i remember bloggin about ma makeup instructor, leslie, and how much admired him, aspirin to be like him one day. yes? hahahha. here he is! :)

1.2k in just one day is amazing lah. (haa. fer a TVC shoot!) o.O but well, i believe it took him lotsa effort and hardwork to get to where he is today.. he's v nice. just that he loves being sarcastic at times, but thankfully, in a haha-funny way. lol.

>> shifu :D

>> hehe. lovin anna lots. :)

wooo. its MOTHERS' DAY today! had a joyfully fantastic day servin in church. glad to see lester agn! hope you had a great time today..

>> some pretty yam cake from breadtalk. i just loveee breadtalk can.

>> surrounded by flowersss. :)

>> spiritual mothers. :)

>> love in christ.. :)

>> white lilies; super nice aye. you wont believe its done by someone with no prior floral arrangement knowledge! God's grace and the talents He give are just amazing.

>> may my service to You be like this pretty lily. cheery and genuine.

night was dinner @ siglap's cartel! lol. one of our hotspots, yet again. but honestly, cartel's service is gettin from bad to worse. nonetheless, we had our mother's wish to fufil! and of all things, i think this made her happy the most! i pray fer a speedy recovery fer your two feet! :(

>> aunty kemmy's fav haagen daaz icecream! slurps.

>> hahah. SIC! everythin made positive in christ.

ehhh. i know many ppl are wonderin what on earth is "green tea caramel corn"! well, here it is!..

>> ps' daiso currently has no stock of it! booo. :(

your mother's day would be meaningless to me even if i were to spent it with you. pls come back on the right path soon.

my star.

2007-05-08T15:02:00.000+08:00

sigh. self-inflicted complications.

bah anyway. below is a splendourous emoemo song. an extract clip from movie; 200 pounds beauty. i believed those who watched it enjoyed it. 4.5/5 stars! (the movie claimed that its ticket sales broke my sassy girl's record in korea..) but well, i still love my sassy girl anyway! one of the favourite ones..

byul (star) - translated, full version

the wind comes rattling gently on the windows,
and over my small room,
the sky was filled with stars,
there were countless of them, shining brightly,
they reassured a tired me,
wiping away the many tears that are deep inside me

"don't be so sad.. "
they hugged me tight, pampered me and comforted me,
telling me to go to sleep

though i'm exhausted to the extend where i can no longer walk,
though tears are blurring my vision,
i'll still smile in front of my love that i'm not able to get

even though our happy times were short,
i'll treasure it deep inside my heart
like those countless number of stars, forever

my dream is coming.
though it's unusual that the one star of mine could be so bright,
it was really bright, very bright..
that it rests on my shoulder
"stop being so sad.. "
it held my hand as it touched me, giving me a warm hug

only for today, i wont cry
though my eyes are now filled with tears
i want to smile like those stars
oh~ i want to cherish all my happy moments deep inside my heart
like those countless number of stars, forever

woo. i am so gonna learn this up!

teach me how to feel again..

makeup career

2007-05-04T17:01:00.000+08:00

i seriously think long breaks are doing me no good.

but then again, i cant possibly take up a full-time job before i officially graduate from UBI. i hope i get to have more workin days soon. well basically, to earn an extra income to cover up ma course fees.. ):

im quite excited abt being a makeup artiste actually. friends are happy fer me and i know im feelin happy too. huhu. i somehow wanna become like leslie (ma coach) someday. he works as an instructor, plus he's workin freelance. but most importantly, i think he's seriously damn skilled.

he hasnt bought makeup products fer v long alr, because all his makeup are usually gifts from his clients. tsktsk.

okay. im inspired.

but yes, all ma benefits and good things are not outta God. may i be that awesome makeup artiste who glorifies God's name. :) :) :)

>> anna; ma fellow classmate and also ma beloved sis-in-christ. :)

yup chums, im doin fine in ma current makeup class. thanks fer all the concern!

a purpose-driven life fer Christ..

its 4th may today,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MAYBELLE!! :D
kazumi lovessss you, v much.

scythia outings.

2007-05-03T02:34:00.000+08:00

this is PART 2!

i've never been in such an enthu empire (like SCYTHIA) with their never-ending outings!! lol. am postin some photos from 2 of the many outings..

SCYTHIA DINNER to GEYLANG

>> lol. emos. nuff said.

>> the emo boss; nice-to-bully ~~ahbeng~~ boss.

>> lovelies; lingyu and jacq. :)

>> the 2 KCs; both KCs are nice. :)

>> the magician of scythia who facinates many!

>> yay. one big family. this is the turnout rate fer a last-minute dinner. 30+ attended..

>> headin home! the east gang.

ECP outing /parkway dinner on LABOURDAY.

>> elise! a v sweet freshie. :)

>> 1st stop was scoopz, 2nd was venezia! :P

>> a mixture of workshop and camp freshies! :) :)

>> lol. eugene from HTM.

>> a portion of scythia GLs!! :) :)

>> weee. adorable serene! :D

>> all ma freshies. :)

>> known each other since krypton days! i din know this mountain nick i started could come sucha long way with him. lol.

>> emoemo eugene; junior in bsg. :) (and you better join marketing!)

poor maybelle is sick. pls tk care of yourself k. miss you.

yawns. -o-

btw, ma job as a dentist assistant is no joke k. totally new environment with many many things to learn and remember. /:

emmanuel.

old birds' outing

2007-05-03T01:46:00.000+08:00

these pictures are comin in pretty late but anyway! oldbirds' outing! here goes.. :)

>> the 6 of us met up at sengkang fer lunch; and yy was super delighted that we actually met at sk..

>> lol. silly linggie. :)

>> AH JI EATS FLOWERS!

>> yy and linggie.

>> yay. the girls. :)

KBOX MADNESS

i joined them after ma class at 1030, but they were there since 8plus. we left cine's kbox @ 3am. hahaha.

>> the guys sure loveee singing! :)

>> sweetness.

>> yes ling. i will miss those brush-teeth sessions with you. :(

>> yay. ma stay @ TPmarketing wouldnt be the same w/o you.

>> lol. love songs agn. so emo.

>> tho she's really a stupong (stupid + sotong = stupong), i was made to love her!

>> the weeeee hours got them mad.

>> but to us, its pure fun! :)

>> so obvious right. its a timer shot. haha.

>> its all about us.. its all about us, baby!

>> lol. "im late!" roared keong.

missin TP. miss laojiaos..

updates!

2007-04-28T01:02:00.001+08:00

gosh. i think its time fer me to update ma blog more regularly..

anyways. town-ed with lingyu, fangyong and jason today. lol. i din know late-night shopping were sardine-packed fridays! but i bought lotsa stuff man, spent mainly on make-up. met lotsa ppl toooo. fellow marketing peeps and even sec sch classmates i.e cw & bf, and zq.

yesterday was late-night out with fellow graduands aka laojiaos. kbox was madness, pictures and lotsa laughter. attendees: yy, linggie, angel, alan, tattie, jodin, cannon, and keong (@ the v last min) sigh. will really really really miss all of you. ):

shall fill the next entry with photos..

have been droppin by sch fer the past 2 days too. AH I MISS SCH! ):

p/s: scythians! i might not be joinin you guys fer the upcomin outin on tues! will be havin church family day.. i will try to make it fer dinner instead! v v sorry.

new hair. :(

2007-04-23T00:33:00.001+08:00

ROAR. i kinda dislike ma new hair now. so much fer being too adventurous. owells. nvm. it'll grow agn!

i cant believe jing and i spent 7 hrs in church doin notice boards! LOL. thats like o.0! but jing is really a great partner to work with. she din even complain or whine when i felt the layout wasnt nice enough and that we should have it re-done. truly admired this kinda workin attitude..

had short breaks in between and we randomly picked a 22nd date from dailybread and i started readin it aloud. against the flow! may seem hard, but its time fer us to show some conviction! jiayou.

hmm. shucks man. sch's startin tomoro, but not at all fer me. i miss sch. =( ahh. i hate emo-ing. gosh, pls let me look forward to scythia's dinner tomoro.

some recent photos!

>> ma fellow beloved GLs. =)

>> puny 148 junior cum scythia FA. =)

>> lol. act-cutes.

>> you'll wear mine, and i'll wear yours! lol. one of game hunt-gry's task.

>> a smile sooo high till its over the eyes!! lol.

>> adorable freshies. =)

>> scythia GLs durin finalclash. undoubtedly the most prominent crowd.

>> the dual function cape; its drizzlin!

>> wee. love loves.

>> pretty liping! loveeee you.

>> scythia FOW flag! =)

>> oh man. last camp in TP! =(

>> ryan, maybelle, jacq. =)

>> lingyuuuuu. =)

>> they gave me many reasons to smile.. =)

>> ahah. flag bearer. FOC scythia's flag. love it man!

>> weee. break camp!

>> one of ma 8 dwarfs. =)

>> wee! salute the armyboys! kor, drewz, guang. haha.

>> the emo3; emo prince, emo boss, emo princess.

>> we see each other fer almost every camp we had in TP. (more than 10!) we tried huntin fer the missing LINGGIE, but to no avail. i will miss you guys loads.

>> TPSU; place of happenin ppl.

>> fookping & shawn; WEEK 0! ma last yr as an SL. =(

>> ben song! i was his SL 2 yrs back.. so nostalgic. and he still remembered many details that happened on the first day back then. amazing..

>> choon and i; before salvo's regatta performance. will definitely miss all his crappiness and presence.

>> no reasons fer this. its ma last salvo performance!

>> SU officials. kaiwei has one of the nicest smile!

>> weisheng and tattie; oh how i miss those yr1 subcomm days!

TP was never a wrong choice fer me.

goodbye to the school i love.

2007-04-16T02:32:00.000+08:00

kazumi is back from 6 days of rawkin FO! scythia has really been ma pride thru this while. FOC 07/08 marked ma very last camp in TP. i will genuinely miss all of you, you freshies, you GLs, you FAs.

unforeseen circumstances took place. still, i felt that the spirit shown durin these 6 days was unbeatable and overwhelmin. tho its ma 2nd time being a GL, but somehow it felt very much different as compared to the GL i was 2 yrs back. this final lap has proved to me how much i really loved TP, and how determined i was to pass this burning passion and TP spirit on to the freshies, or even to ma fellow GLs..

cant believe i've graduated just like that.. as what i've expected, i cried it all out during this final camp.

seein the many familiar faces comin to me with tears streamin down your cheeks, facin each and every single one of you, i was totally at a loss of words. perhaps only urgin you guys not to cry when im already tearin ten times worse than you. we broke down, we huggged tight, we cried, all because we had to bid farewell to this very place where once bonded the so many of us together..

for all the wonderful memories with SU, wonderful memories with TP and wonderful memories with my fellow subcomms, maincomms, GL, empires.. thank you so much, for allowin me to be the kazumi i am today.

i love TP.

miss me hard guys, because i will definitely miss you guys much harder.

goodbye campmates.. linggie, alan, tatming, jodin, yy, angel, clifton, weisheng, melissa, denise, pamela, victor, weiqi, wenqi, kaiwei, shawn, yisheng, terence, alvinneo, fazly, liping, keong, stephanie, jackson, ivan. camps would never be the same without you guys.

goodbye juniors.. continue to do me proud as a friend, as your ex-GL, ex-maincomm! shine bright, and soar high people. TPians will always be together.

photos of D&D! :)

2007-04-02T00:49:00.000+08:00

i think i better post these up before i start work comin tuesday. its gonna be damn tirin.. but God shall grant me sufficient strength to pull thru! :)

tho i've mentioned previously that i'd be takin a break off work... i realised that i needed the money to pay fer ma course fees. sooo.. it means i'd still be workin in the airport, until the new manager no longer needs me! haha.

D&D photos; carnevale di venezia @ Marriott Singapore

>> hopin fer a memorable D&D!

>> wooos. screen snapshot.

>> the interior..

>> mr HGL fanJ.

>> gee. missed val!

>> beloved marketin juniors; sarah and yuting! :) yes yes i know. yuting dont look 148 in this pic at all! haha!

>> ex co-workers; alvin neo & pammie..

>> james, jiayi, junyong. :)

>> lol. jy wore an irritatin currypok hat that night. -.-

>> alan the mafia with the dualengkong money pendant. (dont be decieved by it, its really very light-weight!)

>> table 23!

>> done by cooooool designers! :)

>> the emcee that rawked our night!

>> fellow graduates.. :(

>> ma chums since yr1! thanks to TPSU..

>> lol. ever retarded kbby.. will always remember how you horse-ride! woo!

>> ma freshie from krypton; tommy! :) (man thats eons ago..)

>> weee. dearest jia! :)

>> erm this wasnt taken by me lah, aint so pro. im puttin this up and last because I THINK ITS SO DAMN NICE. :D

i din have the luxury of time to post all.. but i think this pretty much sums up the whole of D&D. the committee did a great job! cheers to TP, cheers to SU, cheers to our undyin spirit! :)

Lord, let it be Your will, not mine..

2007-03-30T03:23:00.000+08:00

hmm. its kinda late now. but i think im gettin used turnin in only at wee hrs again. okay thats bad.

gettin personal..

i cried 3 times today; for all different reasons.. oh wells. i know i've been rather down these days; just felt that ma constant efforts towards this friendship i very much treasure is unjustifiable. you're just takin me fer granted. tell me if you're a person who loves being shouted at.

1st time:
cried during work. after a teleconversation with ma sis-in-law. they arent supportive of ma pursuit in a makeup career/creative line. ma mum thinks i ought to get a proper job, preferably a govt job that pays off well. to her, this skill im gonna take up is a waste of time and money. they gave me more crap to why i shldnt take up the course.

screw it okay. why was i ever so silly to seek help from the wrong people. you only want me to walk in a way you deem is right fer me, without even showin a slightest sense of understanding. am not heeding your advice because you people were never a role model fer me.

2nd time:
cried at home. spoke to ma dad about ma course fees. i thought we drifted alot fer the past 2 yrs.. but when i told him abt this, he merely said: "follow your heart and do what you think is good fer you." tears just flowed uncontrollably.. thanks dad.

he might not be able to provide me or support me fully financially, but im thankful because he granted me a support i've always needed from someone blood-relatedly close to me. i will do you proud.

3rd time:
spoke to tom online. im still gonna say it here again, its great pride knowin such lovely and talented bunch of designers like you all. loves. no worries, loveletters still included! :)

you're definitely one of those whom i'll remember fer a lifetime too! thanks fer all the fun and memories. as expected from you, i will always be here fer you guys. sweethearts.

am blessed with rainbows after each stormy rain, thats why.

treasure all that you have before you, NOT what you dont have thats beyond you.

2007-03-28T02:35:00.000+08:00

weeeeee. finally decided on what to wear fer D&D. double yayness fer me because i dont have to spend money renting costume! (though i really agree $35 is a very reasonable rate!)

cool bananas. after the consultation session today, i think im prolly gonna take up another diploma. jus imagine kazumi as a professional makeup artiste in time to come.. wooo. beloveds in christ pls keep me in prayer! :)

most prob thursday would be ma last day workin at airport! gonna take a break from now.

time fer photos!

230307 fri; costume scouting @ plazasing.

>> ma chippy chaota chip.

>> hanah. cliche toilet shots..

>> huhu! giant tweetybird from hangten.

**

250307 sun; dinner @ jack's place orchard.

>> ma first visit and also the last. its a very nice underground place actually.. but i din even know of its existence until aunty kemmy told me it was there since her dating days (shes alr 50yrs old now).. lol.

>> all smiles! love in christ.. :)

**

260307 mon; hangin out @ bugis. (with only pics of jia and i) haha. :D

>> the super xinfu girl who just came back from tokyo.. i'd really love to visit japan some day.. /:

**

270307 tues; movie date with jingting! :)

mr bean's holiday was hilariously silly! but i wished the crowd was less cold and laughed more. would have made jing and i felt less intimidated because we were laughin almost all the time. i think the scene i remembered most vividly was the stupid chicken runnin la! hahahha. but mr bean was stupider to chase after it man. 3.5/5!

>> shes one of the dearest to me.. thanks fer all the liangtehs and cold remedies.. :)

>> she seriously can laugh nonstop lohh.

>> ahah! there! stupid chicken!

>> you dont have to watch his shows to know he's funny.

>> hhahahha. some moron went to tear down its poor head lah! tsk.

**

randomly presenting...

>> woohoo. ma latest joy; issey miyake's l'eau d'issey limited edition.

gosh. cant wait fer D&D. wonderin how it'd be like. fer those who are attendin, see you there!

as long as the peace stays with me..

2007-03-21T17:29:00.000+08:00

alrite alrite.. i know i hvnt been updating much thesedays. i need to catch up on ma slp you see..

i think the most frequently asked question now is.. "so what are you intending to do after you graduate?"

hmm. honestly, up to this point of time, I AM STILL UNSURE! because everythin i have in mind now are just plans.. am still prayin for a path God wants to place and use me in. i dont dare to really share my plans with many people actually.. why so?

1) they doubt your choice.
2) discouragin comments.
3) still too vague.
4) i dont even know whats really ahead of me!

you can say i dont really have to care about what others think since its ma life afterall.. but well, negative comments usually brings on negative impact on me. sometimes i just wish i could be as confident a person most people perceive me as.

i guess im just too afraid that i'd be complacent one day. nonetheless, im still very glad that i have confidence in God's guidance, which i deem this conviction as something of greater importance.

been thinkin alot.. the next phase of ma life. how'd it be like..

anyway! im havin a great time lately, ~~despite a series of emotional rollercoasters.~~ night classes. prayer meetings. fellowship. cycling session @ ecp with church youths. leox outin. hangin out with grace and joy. and ktv session with jerry!

ktv-ing with him is tremendous stress i tell you. can you imagine! i didnt even really dare to sing in front of him! i think i only got very warmed up during the 4th hour! hahahaha. yikes.

to think i used to select any songs continuously together with my casual friends who loves singin. bah! i guess singin with a pro is afterall, very different. :(

i got updates on someone thru jerry too. im just super disappointed and digusted with him, and the whole of this particular industry. thank God this person is almost non-existant in ma heart now! (though some may think its great honour to know him!) pui.

on the other hand, im feelin kinda proud for jerry actually.. cant really explain why either. you know.. the "you're ma friend, im proud of you!" kinda thing? lol nvm. but to me, he's just a very very clever person lah. do well in uni! and cheers to our 7 years of friendship! :)

oh btw, will post pictures with grace and joy soon. its always such pleasure to be able to hang out with lovable people! huhu. :)

till then!

2007-03-12T22:54:00.000+08:00

BAHHH. super tired now. strived thru 10 hrs of work with less than 4 hrs of rest. but im here to fulfill ma promise. hmm, tho it came pretty late, but i just know you wont blame me, right grace? :D

sis' birthday on 09/03:

let the photos do the talking!

//the enchanted birthday girl! :)

//@ sakae! its pretty obvious that we took all these while waitin fer our food! and grace almost took the chance to bite off the strawberry head can.

//our latest weapon. so pls dont mess with us.

//super spacious toilet.. :)

//YAY. fav scoopz icecream. xD

//some ramdom shots while on the way home.. :)

//teehee. :)

i just knew you had a great day, just like how i did! may this year be yet another year of abundant grace and blessings! (dont forget He'll bless us thru trials too!)

love you!

OFF!

2007-03-02T22:30:00.000+08:00

woo. finally a day OFF fer me!

btw im currently workin part-time inside airport t2. have to wake up at awful hrs like 4am in the mornin, workin all the way from 6am to 4pm. but then agn, i have to admit i love the workin environment there. :)

had a well-deserved rest today. and a well-spent treat to a great movie with lovely ppl like grace and siwei. haha. grace and i kept laughin at stupid jokes we came up with durin the movie, which must have got siwei into thinkin that we are the most absurd ppl on earth. but nonetheless, thanks fer drivin us ard! :)

dreamgirls is a really nice show, do catch it. on top of that, catch JUST FOLLOW LAW if you havent. its a totally chio ka peng movie. i rate both 4.5/5!

and i love watchin movies with grace! because i think she's one of the few who doesnt think im crazy whenever i laugh over the slightest thing. instead, she laughs along with me, and sometimes without knowin why!

hahah. v cute i know.

>> you can laugh with me, and i can cry with you.

>> ahhaha. saw this while walkin ard TM. super skinny lah! i think dale's expression is so funny. (and yy, i know you will imitate when you see this! silly bunny.)

>> cute? this shall be our common possession. im postin this up so she'd remember to meet up with me soon. :D

some random pics..

>> dropped by chaichee last thurs (22/2), just to visit some dear teachers i miss..

>> ghf's steamboat session last sat (24/2) @ carlene's place. :)

>> ahhaha. a cuddly cute sheep.

hmm. 2nd march marks someone's birthday!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIMMY BOY! :)
ahahha. lao le lah you. hvnt been seein much of you after you're in ns. pls take good care of yourself and drop me a msg when you're back in sg okay. smile!

2007-02-26T00:54:00.000+08:00

holidaying for almost 2 weeks now. but havent been in any holiday mood at all..

God knows why. brothers and sisters in christ knows why. i know why.. certainly awed at how God accomplishes His work and the people He wants to use. blessed are His children! the only possible reason to my smiles is His spirit of joy and comfort.

God will make a way, when there seems to be no way.
He works in ways we cannot see, He will make a way for me.

hymns like this never fails to fill ma mind with peace, be it in times of good, or bad. :)

`one for all, all for christ! :)

`jingting; one of the most beautiful characters amongst the many ppl i know. its amazin how much our relationship has deepened for the past 1 yr. :)

next up..

CELEBRATION OF LEARNING (16/2);

`teehee. ma course manager cum fav tutor. he pressurizes me by callin me marketing face.

`fondule vs corny nutters.

`yay. hahhah. i can be taller than him whenever i want to!

`teckchiat; possibly the nicest guy i know from our marketing cohort.

`lovely chip posin with chip, which was meant fer me! loveee her.

`since chip=yy, the chip in the pic represents yy. woos. love sentimentals! best team ever. :)

not forgeting..

`yup i miss you too..

Lord, you've faithfully brought me thru trial after trials. i know you'd make this time no expection.. pls be with us. pls be with me..

2007-02-21T19:12:00.000+08:00

ah HAH!

new year is hereeeee again! (yet another boring-but-made-into-a-hoohaa-occassion) i think some may agree with me.. as you grow older, new year isnt that excitin anymore.. or perhaps, you may even wonder why cny approached so fast.

yes? (yes.)

on the other hand, lets do a flashback. i'll never forget how much i used to look forward to the first day of new yr. new clothes! new stuff! new atmosphere! goodies! angbaos! weee. excitin day. but the excitement didnt last. BECAUSE. ma relatives love commentin how fat i was (when i thought i was lookin damn pretty in a lovely NEW dress).

humph. those were the saddenin and depressin pri sch days..

but anyhow, cny cny. yup, its longer a big deal to me. erm well, wait. maybe i do like certain part of it; the excuse for gettin newww clothes! :x woo.

i spent most of ma new yr holidays with ma beloved churchmates; somethin which i found more comfortin. :)

after ma parents' divorce, i no longer visit ma relatives' place. ('cept for ma dear ahma's place) just as well, all they do is indulge in worldly activities and conversations. dreaded these since young.

see. at the end of the day.. a new year in God is always a blessed one! :)

here's kazumi wishin all you lovelies a blessed chinese new year! loves.

2007-02-16T00:32:00.000+08:00

gee. apologies fer the lack of updates.

before submissions, i thought i'd have ample time to do lotsa things after submissions were cleared.

after submissions, i found out it wasnt so. everything's strange. i just dont understand how ma days became such. bahh jet-packed.

how man. and lunar new yr is comin so soon. i din even had the time to spring-clean ma room! so many uncleared stuff to clear. grrr.

tmr's celebration of learnin fer marketing seniors. MA LAST DAY OF SCHOOL! yea last day, but nope. wont cry yet. cuz FOC has yet to come. hahaha.

yayness. its sentimentals' outing tomoro! missin our days.. :)

yayness

2007-02-08T00:25:00.000+08:00

hurrayyyyyy.

presentations are over!! we did extremely well fer STRATEGIC MARKETING (ms debbie) and INTEGRATED MARKETING COMMUNICATION (dr tan)!! its the first time im hearin our slides were good, from 2 presentations consecutively somemore. actually now that i think back, it wasnt a really bad thing that the first version of strat mktg ppt were so screwed. if it wasnt screwed, i wouldnt have taken the initiative to change it! and debbie wouldnt be impressed! ahaha.

fer IMC, you know i'll work ma best; cuz its a subject i've been held responsible fer. im glad dr tan likes it. juan's feelin skyhigh cuz he commented that she was the star presenter. (so proud of you lah, but it was apparent why he said so!) hahaha. but he also did say that kev, mari and i did well too. man, thats enough to hear from a fav tutor! :) the "well done!" from him still constantly rings in ma ear.

superbly glad, i believe ma grpmates were too! at least all ma (and OUR -2) hardwork werent put to waste. strengths of 4 of us fitted nicely. and above all, im utterly amazed by God's grace. really. :)

but you know what? im fallin sick soon.

nonetheless, retail theraphy today was good. love all the stuff shopped. :D

kiss goodbye to submissions!

2007-02-02T20:06:00.000+08:00

HEY HEY wassup!

submissions are FINALLY OVER. couldnt have been more thankful! actually, we submitted our report late at 5.30pm when the deadline was 5pm. (due to some hiccups that happened in cyber center, i couldnt color print the appendices there!) sigh. but still, God has been very gracious; ms lou was alr on the verge of sendin an email to dr tan, informin him of the groups who have not yet submitted their report.

phew. scaryy, indeed a super close shave.

"on the account that this is your last submission, i wont penalize you!" woo! cheers to ms lou.

juan and i were practically running like mad asses all the way lah. lol. the whole process was hilarious; all the fluster, the panting, the chiong-ing up to lvl 6 in 1 min.. hahahah. i think it has gotta be the best memory we have had together this sem. i hope dr tan (he's currently under ma-favourite-tutor list) will be generous with our grades.. but oh you know, its pretty hard. *shrugs*

but anyway! i've really done ma best and gave it all out. God shall do the rest. presentation week awaits..

thanks to those who showed concern fer me during this stressful period; when i was so stressed up and overwhelmed by anxiety. (special mentions: linda, maybelle, grace, nana, fy, kc, kiwi, jimmy!)

frankly speakin, this has been the worst semester out of the 3 yrs. but then again, it was made into a memorable episode too.

afta entre presentation on thurs, i totally broke down and tears streamed down ma cheeks helplessly. but all that has got me well again. it was a mean to numb all the stress and injustice i was facing. tho some may say, things like that are bound to happen. yea i know. but they'll neva understand..

afterall, the fact is that, they never will understand, because each situation met by each individual is unique by itself. i really appreciated what was done that day because those who saw me cry, didnt attempt to talk alot or console me with the usual nonsense. but instead, just sitting silently close beside me, hopin i'd feel better afta the cry..

kudos to juan, kevin, mari. it has been great workin with you ppl. :) *hugs*

kiss goodbye to sleepless nights; i shall have ma sweetest dream tonight.

2007-01-31T22:43:00.000+08:00

YAY. ONE LAST FINAL SUBMISSION TO GO.

righttt! entrepreneurship presentation tmr. hope it'll go well. meanwhile, pixie treats! (tho i still have IMC stuff to do..) but i need a break anw. haha.

leox's last outin: fish&co

maself; lingyuuuuu; mayyybelle

lol. the humsup facet of mountain; he found an EYECANDY, small mountain. :X

yayyy.

the boyss.

and the girls :)

new love. heh heh. :)

lalala. cant wait fer friday to come. ma current lifestyle is veryvery bad. i slpt at 7am this mornin, woke up at 9am fer submission. reached home at 2pm, slept... and woke up at 6pm fer night class.

as much as i want to clear all submissions deadlines asap; i hate the coming of 16th feb. MA LAST DAY OF SCHOOL. sigh.

woohoo! i passed ma SIP! wahahhaha. i lacked in content. of course lah! who would be interested to know how good ERP solutions are, how they work, the cost to implement, how many man-days it'll take, etc etc? not me man, and definitely not her tooooo. lol.

mail from miss amy: (pss, shes a great LO!)

Hi Jasmine,

I have marked your SIP report. Overall, it is well written. However I note that content is slightly lacking as you did not follow all the guidelines set. However, you have a good command of language and have done well.

You have also performed well in both e-journal and performance appraisal. You have passed the SIP.

Cheers,

Amy Lim
Retail Management Division
Temask Business School

happybirthday yy

2007-01-22T14:00:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY, YIKYING!! =)

weee. ma chip's 20!! still lovin this friendship of ours.. (if dale is fat, so is chip!) hehe. lets chiong all the way fer projects man. lookin forward to endlesslaughter gatherings with sentimentals and PMTB! we promise a belated birthday celebration! (tho i didnt had ANY.. zz) hahah. God bless. *hugss

2007-01-19T00:37:00.000+08:00

adorable dwarf, derek. ppl like him always make me SAD!

☆™«·.¸¸.*®NaZuKi ®*.¸¸.·» ™☆ says:
omg la hols coming soon means u leaving
` kazumi かずみ says:
hahaha.
` kazumi かずみ says:
3yrs.. breezed
` kazumi かずみ says:
sigh
` kazumi かずみ says:
soon it'll be your turn le
☆™«·.¸¸.*®NaZuKi ®*.¸¸.·» ™☆ says:
dat time when i jus yr 1 so fun can
☆™«·.¸¸.*®NaZuKi ®*.¸¸.·» ™☆ says:
ya i tink of it abit sad la blink only next sem yr 3
` kazumi かずみ says:
eeyer
` kazumi かずみ says:
dont like that leh
` kazumi かずみ says:
/:
` kazumi かずみ says:
i think i wanna ask ppl to write farewell letter to me
` kazumi かずみ says:
so i can remember you all alwayssss
` kazumi かずみ says:
maybe i shld
` kazumi かずみ says:
hehe. you shld write me one too!
☆™«·.¸¸.*®NaZuKi ®*.¸¸.·» ™☆ says:
ya u shld den put inside diary
☆™«·.¸¸.*®NaZuKi ®*.¸¸.·» ™☆ says:
ok i start plan wad 2 write giv u a long 1 k
☆™«·.¸¸.*®NaZuKi ®*.¸¸.·» ™☆ says:
u must write 4 mi ar !
☆™«·.¸¸.*®NaZuKi ®*.¸¸.·» ™☆ says:
da only dwarf standing strong hahaha
` kazumi かずみ says:
oh okayyy
` kazumi かずみ says:
i'll write you one..

so how? you all wanna write me letters?

hmm i think that'll be very sweet.

write about things like: how we met, funny happenings, initial perceptions, which camp rawks best, mistaken identities, which empire rawks best, TPSU, how much you love me, how much you hate me (fer graduatin.. lol.), ma rainbow and i, nicknames, endless cheers, our freshie-GL friendship, our freshie-FA friendship, coworkers, fellow subcomms, lounge duty days, cam-whores, fellow GLs, sentossaaa, project madness, marketing heaven, stayovers, drumming craze..

anything memorable, anything abt TP. then again, i dont know how many of you out there are actually readin this. haha.

yr3 breezed. sian lah. i sure cry during FO..

catchin up..

2007-01-18T11:47:00.000+08:00

heyaa folks.

as much i missed out bloggin about daily happenings, i hope you guys missed it as well. :P yup anyway. its 11.48pm now. supposedly to be workin on IMC; on tampines GRC blog, but juan needs a nap!

went to visit ma cousin at SGH last night. he's lookin really frail after first session of chemo. ma heart grew really sour when i saw him tearin, while a few brothers, aunty kemmy and i were prayin individually fer him. i really pray that he'll become part of the Father's kingdom one day. thanks to all of you whom showed concern or have kept ma cousin, qiang, in prayer.. thanks.

hmm. still counting down. out of 17, 8 are down! 9 more(2 midsem, 4 IJs, 3 written reports) to go. woo. 2feb, quick come!

i think you all quite sick of seein words all the time right. i know.. so here are just some photos taken at HK disneyland. a FEW, cuz i took tons. :p

>> its really a fantasy world..

>> magical streets!

>> the 2 happy percussionists.. :)

>> 7 damn cute dwarfs! i thought of ma dwarfs when i saw them. hehe.

>> hoho. loveydovey couple. i just realise there are fat mousies. :x

>> ma fav dog PLUTO!!!

>> the castle by night.. mesmerized.

okay thats all i have fer NOW.. oh man. head cracks whenever i think of saturday's sharin session. ma partner in fer GSF this sat; KAREN. :)

may God grant us wisdom..

2007-01-12T00:58:00.000+08:00

woohoo. its like rainin nonstop.

just need a few moments to breakaway from projects, projects and more projects. or rather, ~~STPs~~! been doing for almost all ma projects. crown me Miss STP. but anyhow. 11 more submissions to go. i cant wait fer this month to be over. the tremendous stress and anxiety that most marketers are facin are just tormentin.

but i know God will bless me.. just like edwina's nick.. by faith, thru grace! i like that! =)

i was laughin to maself when i saw julius' nick, "facin low quality of life until projects get established." LOL. he sure is great at applications, because in our entrepreneurship module, it says.. one of the possible drawbacks faced by an entrepreneur is "low quality of life until business gets established."

the most crucial month. here it goes.. back to work now.

2007-01-06T00:24:00.000+08:00

feelin quite heavy-hearted now..

ma 15 yr old cousin still looked fine and cheery when i went to his house just now. fer a moment, i thought he was on his way briskin to recovery.. nope. not until i had the chance to ask about his conditions, ma uncle said he has yet to undergo chemotherapy.

15 yrs old. chemotherapy. so what were we doing back then when we were still 15?..

pls do keep ma cousin in prayer.. that he may have the strength to pull thru the tough times. but i guess the ones who get hurt the most are still his parents.

havent been in tiptop condition myself. gastric flu, high fever and all. im wondering since when have i been so prone to illnesses.. felt so horrible on wed that i have to cry to make myself feel better. but still, am thankful that i was able to submit reports on time.

then again, whats ma pain compared to his..

back from a short hiatus!

2007-01-01T16:01:00.000+08:00

hello blogders.. apologies fer the short hiatus. had been away fer a short overseas trip at hongkong.

will update really soon with some photos after im done with ma SIP report. lol. yes i havent finish the report YET.

alright, here's ma new year wish fer everyone:

A VERY BLESSED NEW YEAR TO YOU.. may this new year brings forth new sunshines, new happenings, new joy and new strength fer you to pass every adversity in life. much loves; take care! =)

meanwhile, i still dont know how to react to the fact that one of ma cousins has been diagnosed with lung cancer. sigh. i just hope that salvation fer this family is part of God's plan..

oh lord, i know you're a God who listens to prayers.

gross-ed up

2006-12-20T23:42:00.000+08:00

i finally met up with ma dear mickeymouse sista, linda, today!

thats us, like 4 months back. lol. she's with short hair now! chic-lookin! and gosh.. seein her fer that 10 min was a great relief fer me. but hearin abt her SIP experience, and how disgustin her colleagues were to her, just hurts me. stupid ppl are really deemed stupid because they dont know when to shut their mouths.

they shld shut their mouths like forever can. and let those bateria/germs/horrible stench molecules just multiply like crazy till it rots up the whole head! (dont you know im a saddist at times? i dream of the impossible.) but then again, they have no control over their mouths so.. ignore me. BUT WHY DO SUCH MEAN PPL EVEN EXIST?

linda must have great tolerance level man, but somehow, i know she'll curse them like MAD in her heart! hahahaha.

but anyway, im glad we're like lookin towards the same direction afta we grad. woohoo. time to get jun updated. hope God makes a way fer us in this industry..

yaddayadda. its gonna be a jet-packed period till january ends. and ma SIP report is like 99% uncompleted when i've to submit it by 3rd jan? lol. otc will commence tmr, but i can join them only on friday? argh.

by the way, there's this very interestin variety show goin on on channel8! Fact or Fiction; hosted by kim ng and dennis chew(chongqing)! love it man. do check it out; http://ch8.mediacorptv.com/shows/variety/view/801/1/.html

i even emailed them some fwd mails regardin some facial mask made of grinded cockroaches! hahaha. excitin.. :D

rainy daysss

2006-12-19T00:02:00.000+08:00

have i ever told anyone that i love rainy days? =)

some dread it, because they often screw up plans/dates/outings. while some others dread it because they often bring about unknown blues, the pitter-patter melancholy..

well, i cant really explain why i like rainy days too. i'd feel the extra warmth from within somehow. perhaps, its the warm feelin of being sheltered and protected, the warm feelin of being loved, the warm feelin of knowin that you're not alone..

and while all these feelings continue amplifyin, the thankful heart goes chirppin happily givin everythin a whole enchilada.

it would be great if i had the company of scoopz icecream..

motives/intentions

2006-12-18T16:30:00.000+08:00

just typin this entry randomly, somethin more about maself..

many a times, i question about people's motives/intentions whenever they need ma help. im not pin-pointin at anyone/anythin at all right now.

(kindly click on the X situated at the top right hand corner of this window if you're not convinced..)

im just doin this randomly. so usually it goes.. why does so-and-so need ma help?

is it because..
> its an "along-the-way"/coincidental favor?
> i was in a better position to do it?
> he/she dont know how to go about doin it?
> his/her laziness?
> or his/her desires?

then, i went on settin this standard fer maself:
if an intention was never right, stop placin hope in developin it.

hahah. btw.. i decided to take napfa next month. lol. its the rainy season man. how to run 2.4 in such weather!?

yay. i got away from it, temporarily. hehe.

dear xxx,

if you were to read this, pls read it with an open mind. im really voicin out how i feel within..

the more we communicated, the more differences i saw between us. there are many times i've proved ma stand, but you never seem understand. not that you didnt try, but you just cant.

i understand what you're currently goin thru with your struggles in faith, i really do.

but at the same time, you're turnin me into a heartless person that i neva wanted to be.. people didnt understand why i was becomin so unconsiderate and unsympathetic towards you. but no one ever questioned why i was reactin this way, they only saw you as the victim. i felt really awful. i turned cold because givin a person false hopes is the last thing i'd ever wanna do. so pls retreat.

im gettin really uncomfortable and i hope you respect me more as a girl, as your sister-in-christ. and sometimes, things felt at heart shld be just kept within yourself. or if you have to say it out, know the right time to do so.

just remember.. eros love should be mutual. but the agape love is the sacrificial and redeemin love you shld be seekin fer at this point of your life.

yours sincerely,
jasmine

2006-12-17T00:34:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, LINDA!! =)
ahhhh sis! i miss you big time lahhh. i hope you're missin me much more than i know! just less than 2 more months and you're done with SIP! pls take care. *hugs*

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, LI PING!! =)
sweeeetie! i miss you lots toooo. hope you're survivin well in SIP! take great care. *hugs*

also, to your twinnie...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, LI ANG! =)

p/s: wanted to sms you girls. but i've lost all your contacts... so pls msg me if you see this.

the big boys.

2006-12-14T23:49:00.000+08:00

just when i was busy torturin da junwen about his excruciatin hunger, we digressed and thought of the happy times in zingo.. and needless to say, we missed this big character in our troupe very dearly.

"THEY MIGHT BE BIG BIG!!" roared mr aw.

"But can they do it?" questioned junwen and kazumi..

oh shucks. its all an internal joke. but anws, im just gonna blog this down because it'd seem especially funny to all zingo-ians. woo. have a great laugh. i've started this "AW THE BIG BOY" campaign like just 5 minutes ago.. hahahhaha.

and folks! the next time you happen to see the commercial on FEDEX, think of aw(the big boy); new ambassador of DHL okay! wahhaha.

OH NO OH NO. i gotta add this!! junwen sent this to me just a minute ago. LOL. choon will faint if he sees this. but no choice, who ask you to be aw's accomplice? *shrugs*

p/s: photos are edited by da junwen. i think he's dyin of excessive respiration now.

performance @ vivocity!

2006-12-14T13:39:00.000+08:00

here are some pictures of ZingO's last performance @ vivocity; PREMIERE SHOW of CURSE OF THE GOLDEN FLOWER! enjoy!

credits: ARTHUR =)

>>place cursor on photo fer captions!

yucks. blogger only allows 10 photos. whahaha. too bad..

but anyway, am glad this performance is over. i seriously think i gotta be more adaptive and flexible when it comes to actual performances.. still, i cant help but comment that the space given on that day was plain sucky..

i wished we'd one day reach the level whereby event organisers would give it all to us, like the adequate space needed fer us to move ard, proper welfare etc, and not havin US to compromise with what little they have. wahahha. but that would seriously mean hardwork, hardwork and more hardwork to build up this brand of ours; ZingO.

may we soar to greater heights..

2006-12-10T00:27:00.000+08:00

BAH. ma hands are in very bad shape now.. see fer yourself. 18 unriped blisters. lol.

while watchin tv, i showed ma hands to ma brother..

me: kor, see my hand!
kor: WAH! like 30+ yrs old's hands. why like that?
me: drummin lor.
kor: *shakes head*

sad lahhhhh.

but dad's pretty impressed over ma arm muscles. doubly saddened, cuz i no longer suit cap-sleeved tops. =(

just hopin that those gained muscles will help me burn off more fats lah! hahh. btw, i find it hard to imagine that we actually can train fer 6 long hrs fer the past two saturdays.

may comin tues' performance be a really good one fer ALL of us. pls pls pls. and oh, from the pic below, you can tell how stressed up we are..

lol. you've got to have what it takes to be part of zingo man. they are the crappy mates i love. =)

tirin? very.. but that's the price you pay fer something called, passion.

p/s: i just had a haircut today! woo. its back to hairstylin and waxxxx. eeehah.

today's the 10th dec!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, KRISTIN!! =)
loveeeeeee ya wormie. stay chirpy and noisy. above all, i doubly wish that you get over your "unhappiness" soooooon. i still want the same old you back.

=)

2006-12-08T23:47:00.000+08:00

i cant help but feel that im a very blessed girl.

despite all the trials and hard times.. i always happen to meet the right people at the right time. i wish God would bless me with such mentors at ma different stages of life.

a joyful soul in i've found in You! God, pls grant me this same joyful spirit thru the stressful 10 weeks im gonna face ahead!

and as much as i hate leeches, (ewww all black, slimmy, and ugly!) i do aspire to be like them in just ONE way; to clinggggg tightly to something they so believe in. fer me, its ma precious faith that i would never wanna let go..

roar. i wanna eat endamame now!! *growls*

add cute images to your photos like how jun had taught me ! sigh. i miss ma girlfriends..

can i enjoy campus life forever?..

k750i, gone.

2006-12-05T14:06:00.000+08:00

oh sighhhhhhhhhh.

visited bedok library less than an hour ago. went there with the intention of borrowin some books and find some useful resource.. but it all ended up with the careless me losin chris' k750i.

can you believe it? i only got to realise it afta i've finish photocopyin some articles. within 5 minutes, the phone (and ma kumakuma hp pouch) was gone. i hope kumakuma bites off the finger of that junkie. okay, im kiddin.

i wouldnt be that concern if it was ma phone! just spoken to chris, and she said its fine. but im feelin really bad about it, am thinkin of how to compensate..

then again, the date i'll be able to get a new phone is 6th dec. i'd be contactable soon. but its different this time round, no single contact is left. 2 months back, mum said she'd gett me a new phone, but now, i lost her number too. pls tell me im so damn screwed.

may the person holdin on to the k750i use it in peace..

i hate the fact that i've lost someone's stuff, hate the fact that im so bloody careless, hate the fact that i've lost ma kumakuma pouch.. >.< its a lesson learnt..

2006-12-05T00:26:00.000+08:00

wahaha. sorry fer not updating. have been really busy right before school actually started.

i was away fer business trip again last monday to thurs! friday was ma last day, and 5 lovable jiejies took me out fer steamboat and ktv afta work! rawks lahhh. was super cranky that night, prolly cuz i slpt like 4am that mornin.. who cares. at least i got them all entertained. i know you all will miss all the jaw cramps when im gone.. =x

they asked if i was gonna miss them.. like a big fat duh okay! chris, shelby, sohchin, cally, pingnee and ma supervisor sereneeee. i think they are the only reason to why i miss EBS.

but anyhow. TODAY'S THE FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL!!!

anticipated day, but.. the foolish me actually allowed a superficial nut to screw up ma day. keep stayin the way you are, and you'll prolly just find more ppl boycottin you.

i cant stand it you know! *pulls hair* i really dont hate her, and i jolly well know that im nobody to judge her. but sometimes, you just cant deny the presence of such disgustin individuals around you. her mannerisms and speech irks me. pesky intention and hypocritical nature. *shudders*

cant believe i felt DOWN on the first day of school! useless bum..

didnt bump into many familiar faces. but loads of unfamiliar ones in fact. hoho. i hope i get to see those happenin kakis in school sooooooooon!

shall end off with some photos from ma last KL trip!

>> chris, best mentor! =)

>> yes! i've watched HAPPY FEET!! hilarious session fer just RM9. but the audience were dead borin.. both chris and i suspect that they dont understand the jokes and accent in there. hah.

>> serene the salted fish!

>> those crazy timer shots.. haha..

>> the yummy drinks i had that 4 days! deserts were a MUST fer me. *fat lah!*

friends are questionin me whyyy i've such tough arms now. what else! drummin lah. gonna be a man very soon. wahhahah. *choy*

KAZUMI SURVIVED THRU SIP!!! =)

perspective

2006-11-21T23:25:00.000+08:00

hoho. tho im bloggin this late, i did remember monday, 20th nov, was his birthday:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JUNWEN! =)
you've been such a great senior to all of us in zingo. thanks fer all de patience granted, really appreciated it lots. i wonder how would zingo be like without you, aw, choon man. crappin mates, all gone! pls come back with your botak head next year, we'll all be anticipatin it. hahaha. best wishes fer this 20th yr!

sunday was a great day fer me! busy with all the decor stuff in church and choir thereafta! anddd i cant wait fer the upcomin evangelical meet this sat, 7pm! its basically fer new friends. am here sincerely invitin interested parties to ma church.. time to give some thoughts to your purpose in life! =)

(btw, we wont keep pesterin you to come our church if you're totally not ready to accept christ. just take this session as a thought-provokin one and you'll be able to learn alot. pls take ma word fer it.)

dinner was at eastcoast park, with totally furmished stomachs! just some shots with the kids, xinyi and tate. the two young kpo aunties on the block.

btw, have been readin this book; Learning at the Crossroads, recently. found it to be very helpful and encouragin. and i thought this might help you too:

"Every crossroad is NOT a crisis. And some crossroads become crisis only because of our perspective, or lack thereof. Sometimes we ask for God's guidance but dont really want it or seek to follow it - which is a form of hypocrisy."

doesnt it sound familiar to all of you christians out there? i find this to be so true. we often pray whenever we're stuck at a difficult problem, but when we know there's somethin we can/have to do, we dont wanna seek afta it. we just ask fer His guidance fer the mere sake of askin.

God, pls be gracious..

2006-11-17T20:47:00.000+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

i am home now becuz i didnt join the gurls fer bladin! im stuck at home with a faulty nose-tap! dread it lah. kept sneezin non-stop. feelin the strain on the poor nose. yea its in the process of restructurin into a sharper nose.. hahahahahhaa. =.=

whatever. this is call, ku zhong zuo le! (loosely translated: seekin happiness in sorrow) but seriously, it feels as tho im gonna cough ma organs out anytime. yea cuz its those cough + sneeze kinda sneezin.. if you know what i mean. but in any case, i guess maple's gonna be ma companion fer now..

i think sohchin should be maplin rite now, since she decided that she didnt wanna go becuz nobody can meet her @ bedok to go ECP togetha. haha. oh btw, lemme introduce ma 2 colleague-buddies of the week: shelby biebie and sohchin crappy!

this is shelby, who always burst out laughin wheneva she sees me:

this is crappy, and im her fellow corny. we're said to be alike in many ways. lol. equally crappy i'd say:

how i wish tomorrow was a next week's monday! so i can take MC! wahaha. then i can have four weekend days brought forward to next week!

BAH! think too much i know. but i just wanna train well tomorrow lah, and enjoy ma sunday @ church.. but at the current state im in, HOW TO..? i dont wanna skip trainin, so pls pray fer me! i wanna sit in the holy temple with a clear and sound mind, pls double pray fer me!

the photo specially taken fer this entry:

hahahha. so tell me did ma nose got sharper?? =P *sniffs*

oh, before i forget, here's fer the poor booboo recruit!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, ANDREW!! =)
heyya dont sulk over roadmarches and the sucky life in ns lah.. time will pass by sooner than you know! so how's your mailbox? garang's back in action in floodin you know. hahahaha. tk care lots eh! =)

updatess

2006-11-16T23:25:00.000+08:00

long long day! 11 more workin days to go! =) SIP finally seemed like a breeze. *hair flies* lol.

i forgot what i wanted to blog about. but here are just some recent happenings:

sunday (12/11) -

afta church, some of us went to VIVOcity, just to witness how majestic the gospel ship -- MVdoulos was. cool huh! gospel ship! yea you heard it. there was even a bookfair on board. fished quite a number of good books. am readin with spiritual caution. haha. unforgetable experience, even tho the fair did seem pretty normal. =)

met up with wormies thereafta. had our dinner @ delifrance bristro. all worth it.. =)

nothin much to elaborate but it was definitely anotha enjoyable, wormyful day! we just cant get enough of us! time always fly pass fasta than it usually does whenever we're togetha. =/

as much as i dont seem to care, i really wished you'd step out and untie this complicated knot yourself. i dont believe in sympathy when it comes to BGRs, and that i shld accomodate to unreasonable swings when we hardly have a get-together. im puttin a tough front hopin that it'll train you to be stronger. so show it to him, show it to us all who are proud of you. its not easy, we all know. but pls remember those who love you.

today is... thursday! yes yes. tuition day! was walkin to ma students house and i couldnt take ma eyes off this woman's back!

check out the curvessssss! im sorry. really didnt mean to be rude, im just awed by her figure.. *-* *saves comments to maself*

today's lesson can faint flat lah. you know there has been all these "car bang dog, dog die. i cry." kinda compositions circulatin via email quite some time back? i got it first hand man, from ma dear student alicia.

marked halfway and i couldnt take it already. so i took a picture of it. maybe its meant to be a stress reliever fer me. hahaha.

btw, the followin isnt ma maple character. its sohchin's. but shelby and sohchin thinks twinstar22 frowns like ME. what say you?

not sure huh? okay i'll frown fer you next time okay. hahah. maple maple! every friday's a maple day! =P

shelby and pingnee gonna teach me bladin tomorrow! hopin i can get the hang of it fast. SOOOOOOOO.. i can go blade with miss gracey! =) weee!

im gonna end this entry with very very dear birthday wishes fer..

TAN SHU JUAN!!!
*hugs* hey nonsense. sincere birthday wishes from your dear me! lets ace when we get back school! no more pontang-ing of lectures and tutorials!! we can do it cuz we are in this togetha! right here wishin you a very blessed 19th. (oh so you mean you're actually younger than me?!) hahahha. btw, i hope those scars you hate so much will go away too! i just want you to be a happy you. =)

and actually in less than a hour's time.. it'd be his birthday too!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, KERSON! =)
hope you're doin well in NS, mr commando! i cant count the amount of promises that you haven fufil. haha. but i can understand.. im gettin so immuned to it already. enjoy your busy life! with much loves, wishin you a blessed 22nd birthday. take care! =)

2006-11-13T22:10:00.000+08:00

man. this is bad.

DEAR FRIENDS who are readin this, sms me to lemme know of your numbers! ma phone crashed lah. went to samsung customer centre today, and the person said those data were unretrieveable. well basically, i didnt lose ALL contacts bcuz i still had SIM card. but apparently, i've lost MOST.. esp poly friends + ppl whom i just know fer less than 2 yrs.

so thanks huh. SMS ME.

AND BEFORE I IGNORE YOU, DO IT NOW PLS.

2006-11-10T18:55:00.000+08:00

there goes..

i hereby pronoun the official death of ma dearest E810C. =(

it actually failed me in less than 2 yrs. oh sigh. time to get a new phone. im gonna boycott samsung products fer good. currently usin a spare phone from chris.. but i cant use it at ease until i get the charger from cally.

anyway! next monday is chris' bday. she'll be away durin her bday week. =/ so this was her early piggie surprise. haha. friday night out with them were FUN! but they spent more time laughin at me, esp shelby. =(

but it was ma first time seein her laugh so much. somehow.. i felt happy deep inside me too. =)

> happy bday chris! *loves from cally, pingnee, serene & me! ^^

***

know smthg.. ma student lied to me.

she din had sch yesterday, and i asked why. she said she didnt know. based on common sense, i thought that it was meant to be a marking day (like how it used to be during those pri sch days)

but she told me it wasnt, and she had already gotten her papers back. oh yea cool! primary sch teachers are so efficient these days.

of course, i asked her bout her results in anticipation. she shrugged and told me she didnt know. i thought this was absurd man. but what was amazing bout this whole thing was that i did not doubt her from the start. the thought her tellin a lie had never come across ma mind at all. as impossible as it sounded, i still believe that she could have forgotten her marks. so all i could do was to wait fer her mum to return home so i could get to the bottom of the matter.

i finally knew what happened. she failed.

i sensed disappointment from her parents. frankly speaking, i was at a loss and didnt know how to deal with the situation. i just looked at alicia blankly.

i thought of what more i could possibly do fer lil alicia. but i also told maself this, im givin maself a grace of 6 months, but then again, im unsure of her mum's grace period fer me.

i hope parents can be understanding enough to know that passing grades dont come by instantly, and its not solely based on a tuition teacher's effort in supervising the kid's progress.

rebuilt.

2006-11-09T00:00:00.000+08:00

=)

to those whom were puzzled, worried, concern over ma past entry.. no worries. im fine as i am.

christians should bear in mind that God allow trials in His children's life, and im convicted of where ma source of strength is from.

for clarification purpose with regards to last entry..

what made it so personal was because i saw maself goin closer to God once again. on the other hand, i cried because i saw someone dear to me so heart-shattered.. and we know that by our own means, we cant do much but only pray.

i witness how God spoke to us yesterday, and she was sitted right beside me. utterly amazed. we smiled and left xian house that night with rebuilt faith.

rochor beancurd night wrapped up the day, very well. =) =) =)

love it lah. *grins*

just as ppl questioned why God hardened the pharaoh's heart to deny christ.. i learnt that:

"God dont inject evil thoughts into man to harden their hearts, for our God is pure and righteous. God just didnt show enough mercy to them."

..kazumi is part of His wonderful plan..

i'll be back with ma alohas. =)

My all in ALL..

2006-11-07T13:06:00.000+08:00

gettin personal. ma 2nd turnin point.

God never fails to awe me with His realism and greatness. Jesus, you are my all in all..

You are the treasure that I seek,
You are my all in all.
Seeking You as a precious jewel,
Lord to give up I'd be a fool,
You are my all in all.

Jesus, Lamb of God - worthy is Your name.
Jesus, Lamb of God - worthy is Your name.

Taking my sin, my cross, my shame,
Rising again, I bless Your name,
You are my all in all.
When I fall down, You pick me up,
When I am dry You fill my cup,
You are my all in all.

its been a long time. i cried so hard that night and i couldnt even understand why.. and Lord, you were the only one by my side..

pls deliever us thru this period of tough times. Father, i know you have a great plan behind all these that happened. may you add strength unto the oppressed, may you grant us greater faith to withstand trials, and may you show mercy to this house of yours that we're servin in..

back

2006-10-31T13:17:00.000+08:00

feels like i hvn been bloggin fer a longggg time aye. really couldnt find time to do so. anyways, here goes..

i missed night class last wed cuz i had to do OT! but it was way fine with me cuz im given time-off on thurs! which means i can give ma student a 3 hr revision tuition! alicia seems to enjoy it more cuz there were short breaks in between, and i realised that that works betta fer her.

really hope she'll do well this time round. her previous results were enough make me hang maself. but i really think kids are adorable.. they still find reasons to like you even when you're strict with them. (thats if you let them feel that they're loved and doted lah.) haha. during the first lesson i had with her afta i came back from ma trip, she hugged me and told me she missed me alot.

so sweet right. but i felt like dyin the next moment, she wanted me to be her "mummy", instead of sister.

oh yes, i manage to take a photo of alicia and her sista, audrey. =)

> a pair of pretty sistas with mesmerizin eyes!

> audrey the kissin monster. hahaha.

haa. lil audrey wants tuition, but she'd have to wait fer anotha 2 yrs. lol.

i met up with 2/5 wormies, shuyan and kris last friday fer steamboat session at bugis. one of another fun-filled outings. they never fail to amuse me with the lame jokes and happenings.. =)

> this is called "yuan-yang".

> great company like this. =)

> shuyan loves mee-swa..

> the nonsensical duo.

> kris and maself. i was coverin ma mouth cuz the "ma la" (spicy) soupbase was SUPER SPICYYYYYYYYY. *roars*

> WATERMELON SAVES THE DAYYYYY. =D see. i was practically tearing.. lol.

but you know through the 2 hrs we were enjoyin steamboatin, there was a very irritatin person sittin behind me.

WHY SO?! just see..

> the annoyed-but-kept-calm kazumi.

it was really like restin her arm there so conveniently lahh.. i din get to use the backrest most of the time.. there were times when i accidentally leaned back, but i had to recover quickly cuz she didnt move her heavy arm away! i wonder why there are such ppl ard..

ma stomach felt damn weird afta we ate. guess it was really way too spicy fer me. afta the first spoonful of soup i sipped, i started perspirin and felt as tho ma lips were swellin like mad lah! it was really that hot..

went walkin from bugis to PS.. took some photos on the way.

hahahaha. i find this photo so funny. (esp shuyan) XD

ma dear kumakuma has decided to form its own family. =)

> ahahha. SUPER CUTE RIGHT. the one with ribbon is from Chris! x)

> chris loves kuma tooooo! ^-^

sian lah. chris gg on leave soon. =(

2006-10-25T12:56:00.000+08:00

its one of those times, yet again.

feelin super demoralised. dont wanna face ppl, dont wanna be out, dont wanna be home early, just dont feel right at all! must be the aftermath of the trip; feelin disoriented and all.. i wish i could help maself. in great need of a total workout to feel better.. but damn the haze lah.

so this is how easily i lose confidence. i really hate to understand maself sometimes.

but no worries, im fine. i just need to let it out..

birthdayy!

2006-10-23T22:12:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KENJI! =) (23oct)
- hahah lao le lao le! =x jk! hope you'd get to work in a place where you wanna be eventually.. ktv soooooon.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHUYAN! =) (24oct)
- love ya lots wormie. more slumber and cacoon nights! miss ya. x)

updates

2006-10-19T21:41:00.000+08:00

wee. im enjoyin ma stay at malaysia so far. i guess most of you are thinkin like.. "wah you lucky thing, must be having fun!"

i wont deny that lah. im havin fun learnin.. thru corporate events like Microsoft Summit and sales retreat. its just so different to be in the corporate world! but somehow its like experincin subjects learnt comin to live. and.. i really pick up some impt P2P skills along the way.

basic respect is so impt, yet some ppl who are much senior than me cant even understand that. a people person with lousy personality. *rolls eyes* but besides that, i still love most of ma EBS colleagues. =)

right now.. im still at the office. lol. ma poor supervisor and manager are still busy with their slide preparation fer tmr's presentation. *gives morale support*

here are someeee photos taken during MS Summit, Malaysia! =)

>> serene, chris and maself togetha with co-workers from malaysia; jackson, esther, stanley!

>> teachers VS mafias.

>> our POS system.

>> lol. random..

>> yummy dinner treat afta a hard day's work! =) GOOD FOOD OKAY. *slurps

ahhh. stomachache. just had a crazy time laughin with serene and chris. thanks to mcdull. hahahaha.

lol. its 12.36am now. >.<

2006-10-17T15:18:00.000+08:00

konnichiwa!

reportin safely from malaysia. NO INTERNET ACCESS IN HOTEL AHHHH. sadded.

the haze here is pretty bad. but i heard that PSI in sg went up to 160?? oh man. pls take care everyone..

God bless! =)

anythin anyone?

2006-10-11T22:46:00.000+08:00

HEYYYY CHUMS!

ma company's sendin me off to malaysia to assist in another round of Microsoft Solutions Summit Event @ KL! plus, they've included me to be in the upcomin sales retreat, togetha with the sales team!

WAHHAHAHA. its like a damn rare opportunity fer interns! cool bananas.

i'd be leavin this comin monday, and would only come back on a saturday. =) yes please do miss me. ANYHOW. its a 5hr coach ride, so i was wonderin if.................

ANY KIND SOUL OUT THERE would like to.. hmm.. lend me your mp3, magazines (tho i hv tons), write love letters to me to help me kill time? lol. love letters meanin casual letters lah, i do write them to ma girlfrens to make their day...

ANYTHING ANYONE?

SMILE

2006-10-09T20:48:00.000+08:00

from a frown to a smile. =)

the solution: be thankful fer all that you have. when you always give thanks fer what you have in life, you'll be a happier person, naturally. give thanks to God and you'll find joy in Him..

philosophy in life; to bear a christian mind.

ma day started off rather bad today. first comes unjust "warnings", then comes.. the ambiguity and doubt.

yes i wont deny that i was very much affected by you. i didnt want to condemn you before i get the chance to ask you abt it. but why? has makin empty promises been your forte all along? did i not know you well enough? everytime when i thought it was over, it wasnt. i dont know what you expect of me, and you made me clueless of what to expect of you. pls, just leave me alone if you werent meant to be. you're nobody to manipulate me. go away! get far away from me with your empty promises.

im so amazed at how God always send the right people at the right time whenever im down. indeed, everythin in His will. yup, thanks sharon.. thanks fer hearin me out. i felt so much better.. =)

sharon was tellin me not to think too much, but she clearly knew i would. just like her, i wished i wouldnt too. and i guess everythin changed fer the better when i sat on ma bed, and started lookin ard ma room.. it was filled with love.

friends expressed love through hugs and gifts. God expressed love through His unfailing word and abundant grace.

and you know what? i've both. =)

*SNAPSHOTS.

- ZINGO. 97.2FM event @ EXPO. well done ppl! *lovess. =)

> the 7000 seats.

> rehearsin in progress.

> endin pose.

> yay. we did it!

- ma belated dinner/celebration with WORMIES.

> very yummy. *slurps

> they gave me a card that looked like kris.

> wormies 5/5! =)

> their present fer me. =)

> against all odds. =) lets uphold our wormies pledge till grave.

actually we took many more photos than that. but i guess it'd be too borin fer you all, and too tirin fer me to edit. hahaha. weeeee. thank God the weather's finally much betta today! see. this was last sat, 7/10. tsk..

> like genting can.. =.=

tomorrow will be anotha long day. Lord, pls grant me strength and wisdom to pass ma everyday..

> from chris; adorable plasters in a case! ^^ thankyouuu! love it!

and this was what wormies got me!

> hahah. saw this at action city bfore. but didnt intend to buy it even tho i found it real cute lah. but owells. its fated to be mineeee. heh heh.

=)

fool

2006-10-09T01:01:00.000+08:00

fun-filled dinner and chillin session with wormies! *much loves =)

thanks fer that very cute present and the great company. yay! live healthy! 8 glasses of water everyday! hahha. and its been quite long ago since i last laughed so hard! those were our wonderful secondary school days.. i really missed the fun we had, but nope, definitely not the books. haa. =)

oh yess, sat's performance went on well. woo! =) thankful.. lotsa pics fer now. will update again.

i just want to know the real you.

=)

2006-10-03T22:39:00.001+08:00

huhuhu.

today's a great day @ work! =) it was a one-day Microsoft Summit event held at suntec convention centre! time passed fast man. love it. must be the people. =)

so thankful to be in the marketin dept. if not i wouldnt have experienced what i did today!

and man! christine is sucha bubbly and funny person to be with! shes one of those whom i hold high respect fer in the company, not bcuz shes serene's (ma supervisor) mentor/boss, but.. i just felt comfortable conversin with her. and i learnt alot from her today just by talkin to her. actually, i didnt thought that i'd grow to like her so much. cos she looked kinda intimidatin and stringent, well, in a way she is. but its only the times when she has to be serious. besides that, shes really nice! fun! has great sense of humor! super contagious laughter! i like! =)

she admires cute stuff too! ma kumakuma made her smileeeee like a child you know. lol. plus.. we share the same faith. =) cool huh.

and oh! i found a TP senior at EBS too! her name's cally. graduated from IT sch in 2001. hahaha. when i was told she was from TP, i felt soooo much closer to her lah! she was active in school back then too! =) oh yes, im so awed by female IT personnel recently; and shes one of them! cally's just 5 yrs older than me. andddddd, we share the same faith too! hehe. im so happy today. okay at least i know im soundin very happy now. =)

and yes im gonna start lovin ma stay here at EBS from today! its not that i've stop tryin.. but today's a breakthru. the bond is developin. =) what i learnt is that you can neva say you dont like/hate smthg when you haven got the chance to know it betta. or in ma context, its the ppl.

hehe. but seriously, CHRIS IS REAL ADORABLY FUNNY!!! ^^

telemarketin! calls to managin directors! managers! all big shots! im here to conquer you tomoro! =)

yea i meant.. fear! im here to conquer you!

i thought i had been positive enough by smilin more, doin things dilligently (when deepdown i know i dont really like it), tryin not to complain abt ma SIP (when i hear how much ppl disliked/loved theirs). but today, i realised that its called surpression. forcin yourself to like smthg that you're not ready to like.

weee. now i know whats positivity; it rawks to feel positive!

well that statement doesnt mean that i'd no longa face difficulties durin work. but at least, now i know im ready to turn to help, ready to ask questions, ready to get motivated by ppl, ready to learn much more! so in any occassion when i do still whine about work, remember that i do that to channel out frustrations k? like who doesnt, right? =)

2006-10-02T23:43:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!! =)

nothin special happened today.. but the wishes from ppl really warmed ma heart, somehow. and fer that, i'd like to thank everyone who took the effort to wish me a happy birthday thru smses, calls, testimonials, blogs, tags cuz you guys made ma day! *much loves*

i really appreciate you know. i even had a record; everythin that was said, and wished of. hehe. i did a log of it so whenever i read it, i'd feel as tho its ma bday everyday! =) oh btw, this is ma very kawaii organizer, imported from japan. cost me a bomb lah!

>> the smses! cool right? or you think im crazy? you're dumber than i thought if you think i am. hehe. the pages were this occupied at 2pm+. =)

ma bday dinner with mum and jensen @ fish&co! =)

>> ma nephew, jensen, whose birthday is comin soon too! =)

>> mummy. =)

why i din celebrate..

- SIP SIP SIP!
- FRIENDS ARE ALSO ON SIP!
- DONT LIKE INDIVIDUAL DATES.
- BUDDIES WHO HAVE THE AUDACITY TO FORGET MA BIRTHDAY.

wahahha. those who fell under the last catergory.. call yourself ma GOOD friend. im gonna stare and glare at you till you grow wobbly, and skin you all alive the next time i see you lor. wahahha. okay im just kiddin. =)

and dear chums who promised a belated dinner, dont make empty promises and make me glee fer nth OKAY. i want a make-up session, those double the fun and laughta kind hor.

still, i thank God fer all that happened today. the anticipation, the disappointment, the sweetness, the love felt, just everything. im thankful, really.

hmm. nobody at home remembered ma bday. yea. ma dad, his gf (whom i call auntie), ma bro and his gf (whom i call jiejie). but still, im thankful. cuz i know, the very predictable thing ma dad will do is, buy cake, cut cake. then "oh! finish! i did ma part by celebratin jasmine's birthday."

i know him too well, dont doubt. i really do. he's not ma father fer nth. or maybe thats why im not his daughter fer nth too. haha. =)

showers have passed, and a rainbow i saw! graceeeeeeeeeeeee. i love you. =)

pics.

2006-10-01T20:53:00.000+08:00

blues. yet its one of anotha amazin day.

neways, some photos taken yesterday! thankful fer havin such wonderful, God-given ppl ard me..

>> lol. the certified prawn-torturers! they always behave like kids when they get togetha. i just find that so sweet. =)

>> their organised way of cookin.

>> ma FULL OF FLIES bowl of soup. nutritous hor?

>> beloved sistas and spiritual mummy! =)

>> ma humourous bunch of brothers.

>> spiritual parents! =)

>> ma LAST teenage year. i dont wanna hit 20 leh. ):

theres a deep cut on ma last finger now.. *looks at plastered left pinky*

as usual, there was choir practice today. so bfore that, i went to the ladies before choir. when i pull the door open, there was a woman who wanted to step in also. of course, i let her in first lah.. but right. i din opened the door wider afta the woman went in. SOOOO..

the door slammed on ma back and i reacted by pushin the door with ma left hand. but i think the slammin force was quite great till i got quite a deep cut on ma finger. (think its some metal at the handle area..) i din realise until i was like 10m away.. felt somethin quite painful. then i lookedddd and saw a very bloody pinky. got a shock lah. blood just came flowin out profusely! the pain didnt quite matched up with the loss of blood.

lol. as in.. it was not as pain as it seemed. but now, it is. =( but i was thinkin, maybe i'd feel betta if the woman who stepped into the toilet smiled at me, tellin me she was appreciative that i opened the door fer her..

no lah. not that i opened the door wantin to seek fer her appreciation, but i just felt that that was basic courtesy fer me to let her come in first. aiya. acknowledge ppl's presence will die meh? smile smile wont harm too right? i think it can really make ppl's day loh. so ppl, smile more next time okay. =)

because kazumi love smiles; smilin and makin ppl ard her smile. =)

just like how much i want God to smile at me, at whatever things i do, at everythin that i want to offer to Him.

short updates

2006-10-01T00:37:00.000+08:00

feelin great!

i love today's trainin man. slpt very little the night before but still managed to pull thru. ma hands are all sore lah. sore hands. super good workout. shixiong seems to be pleased with our trainin today. ahaha. yes, i just felt that he was.

nonetheless, it was a very tirin day fer me. rushed back home afta lunchin with zingo mates. got changed and joined ma churchmates fer steamboat-bbq session at marina bay! they had a mini pre celebration fer me.. thanks! =) will post pics soon.

just some random updates:

zingo will be havin anotha performance on the 7 october at singapore expo, and we were told that there will be around 7,000 people watchin us. its some 97.2FM radio event if im not wrong. like weeee lah. hahaha. its either we make or ~~break~~ it.

salvo will be guest performers for dance ensemble on the 19 oct.

AND I AM SO LOOKIN FORWARD TO THE JOYOUS MONTH OF DEC!!! a time when..

- SIP finally ends!!
- i can get ma SE phone!
- GOING HK with churchmates!
- lotsa church events goin on!

oh great! december! COUNT DOWN WITH ME.

for now. lets countdown FOR me; 1 more day. =)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, DWARFIE RODERICK!

loves; snowwhite.

YAY MC!

2006-09-27T23:07:00.000+08:00

ON MC FER A DAY!! SHEER PLEASURE, ITS TRUE. (:

PUBLIC APLOGY to xiaofang. really sorry fer what happened this mornin.. i felt damn terrible when i knew she was still waitin fer me at 8.35am! next time if i dont reach bedok station by 8.25am, pls leave without me okay?

man. LO's droppin by tomoro. cant wait cant wait.

and mr alvin ting, if you are readin this, i just wanted to tell you that i found your email addressin to all your VIPs was very sweet. you've left footprints in ma heart since those putus days! hereby wishin you all the very best!

something's goin wrong with our friendship. would you tell me why? call me sensitive; but i sense we arent as before.. your care, enthusiasm, carefree nature..

gone. i want ma sista back.

2006-09-25T23:14:00.000+08:00

freelance make-up artiste, should i?

simple life.

2006-09-24T22:56:00.000+08:00

service, choir, hymns, prayers and praise. i want to have a heart to enjoy whatever im doin to make God smile, forever. yup. forever does exist. and im thankful to be part of eternity, the wonderful aftalife that im gonna have afta i die..

anyways, mum drove dad and i to parkway today. (because i wanted to get a new phone and new plan, and ma dad's signature is required cuz ma current plan is still under his name.)

neva dreamt that there'd still be this one day whereby ma parents and i'd get to sit in the same car again. a strange feelin overwhemled me as mum drove past that familiar stretch of road, and ma eyes suddenly got teary. things were just so different then and now.

tho i knew the possibility of them gettin back togetha again is near zero.. i just couldnt help but still have a lil dream about it; the what ifs.

i choose to believe its God's will that they are no longer togetha; and i thank God it was because of all these that i got back on track.. im convicted to walk in His will and break the curse of broken marriages that has been passin down the family line. i will be different, only with God.

met up with jensen and dasao too, was great seein them again. i really wish that God will make a way fer her and free her from such bondage. it just hurts me seein her havin to go thru all these.

alrite! cut the unhappy, emo issues. i got ma wayy early present from dasao. the red belt i wanted to buy from m)phosis. yay. thanks! (:

scoopZ icecream with parents and nephew. (:

the dasao i loveee.

yesssss i know you are gonna say shes very pretty!

yay! contented.

hahahahha. the humongous watermelon in jensen's hands.

lo'real free makeover! thats why i looked kinda different today! ahhah. and thats ma polaroid fer the contest.

weeeeee. i enjoyed ma day so much. but tomoro's a mondayyyy.

you're happier when life's simple.

howww

2006-09-22T23:16:00.000+08:00

woooooo. its.. FRIDAY YAYNESS!

~~SIP~~ aside. i think im startin to face problems with ma P2 student alr. wahahaha. i can explain a sum fer 2 lessons but she still dont get it. im feelin the extra pressure bcuz im being paid to teach. but ma student hor, always play tikam tikam with me.

me: "this one x or +?" (correct is x)
alicia: *hesitates and whispers* "ppppppllllussss"
me: "you sure?"
alicia: *hesitates and whispers* "timesss.."
me:"so its x or +?"

*long pause*

me: "do you understand what the question is talkin about?"
alicia: "jiejie i dont understand."

*prompt, explain, draw, underline, illustrate.*

alicia: *confidently* "times! times!"
me: "why times?"
alicia: *pause* "errrrrrrrrr..."
me: "you understand anot?"
alicia: "no."

i dont know what to do to make her really understand leh. her answers sway like jellyfish everytime i go "you sure?" hahahha. but thats like damn common among kids. im stuck leh. to me its like, seeing the parent's money spent on the cycle above.

God, pls grant me patience and wisdom..

P2.. still in the blurblur phase i guess. but im worried lah, her exams are comin. and she relys heavily on ma prompts when she does her work. if not, she will just keep "eee, er, hmm, orrr, ah." as you can see, it is a continuous cycle. becuz i said "when you dont understand ask me", so she'll just keep tellin me "i dont understand."

howww..

tmr's on campus trainin @ TP. hoho. damn happy lah! finally no office wear. can see all ma friends again! yayyy.

SIP shant stop me from postin up PHOTOS! wahahah.

>> tues; salvo's performance @ kreta ayer CC fer POLYFORUM! our full-of-laughter lorry ride. (:

windy windy! buddy pq! (:

our very messy hair!

inspired by choon. lol.

>> thurs; felicia's 19th bday chalet! (afta tuition and a long day @ work.)

happy birthday fel! (: you're older then me liaooo.

whahahah! smelly army boy.

he dont wanna show all of us his botak head! ): (that guy tryin to come into the picture is lim chong guang)

lol. he is just so funny lah.

james!! he's in bliss!

choo choo train, our whacky fun times!! (con was the photographer.)

i really had a great time laughin with james, con and jy. we've made eatin-at-macs seem like the most fun thing to do on earth, just fer this clique, PMTB. haha. *lovess.

i was quite surprised you know. its only 22nd sept and ppl are askin me how am i celebratin ma bday alr. hehe. thanks. i find it sweet. but so sad lah, i'd still be havin SIP. it'd be a bluey monday on 2nd oct. *sulks* still, i dont intend to really party out and have fun. dont know why also, i find maself really weird sometimes. haha.

fer some reason, i just know you'll forget ma bday. yes, you will. prove me wrong can?