// lost.

a crestfallen kazumi today.


too many things are happenin.. its not dat i've lost ma optimism but im really feelin fer ma frens now. 2 of ma frens whom i love so dearly.


supposed to be doin ma projects now.. but i cant stop maself from thinkin abt them.. i really pray to God dat He'll take away all da pain from them.



feelin so down now.. so sluggish now. im sorry to all who're readin this. dun worry, im fine..




to lynn; im so glad dat you're feelin betta alr.. i really miss you. and im dyin to see you nex week! >.< stress is inevitable but dun let it overcome you.. cuz i noe you're strong. and ya.. jus like wad i've told you previously, i wont go back on ma word. and you can trust me fer dat.. *hooks finger* (:




to him; hey boyy, i've kept you in anonymity. i guess when you first told me abt it, i really did felt quite disappointed initially.. but heyy, it was all bcuz it all came to me too suddenly. i can assure you dat i WILL NOT ostrasize you neitha do i have da right to do so. in fact, im so proud of you dat you did tell da truth.. it was a really brave act and you really deserve a pat on yer back. jus hope dat you can see things in anotha way.. dat God has greater plans fer you ahead. wads past is past. you cant even decide wad you wan or dunwan in life fer everythin was alr predestined by God. i ought to thank God fer you cuz he woke you up from a sweet dream quite shortly. yes, a dream afterall. stand up from where you are now and be a man who live fer Him. a godsent is not defined by you or me, but Him. (: give Him da autonomy in life and you will neva be lost again. continue prayin and i will keep you in prayers as well. Nothin is outta da will of God, remember.. stay strong..



i'm so thankful i have a faith dat is so dear and precious.. i thank and praise you Lord..

// takin time off

ooo HEYYY.


im bloggin again! haha. suppose to be doin ma IJ now. but grr. i need time off from work, work, work and jus WORK. fer this week and nex, i'll stil be chiongin projects while othas would prolly have completed theirs alr.


hah. den comes one week of presentation, presentation and PRESENTATION! >.<


nonetheless, marketing stil rawks. (: cuz we have EARLY HOLIDAYS!! yess its a sunny yellow banana day fer US. while da rest will be busy sloggin and muggin hard fer their final exams! ahahha. yayness.


oh im sucha saddist. opps.




i pondered about many things fer da past few days, or maybe i've alwaes been like dat. hah. though im alwaes seen as a happy-go-lucky gurl. but i guess anyone who truly noes me noe dat im a deep thinker. thinkin abt da many things in life. da past, present, future.. one of which is always how God had led me thru.. and da optimism i have towards life. i've nv allowed maself to stagger in self-pity even though, in ppl's eyes, there are copious reasons fer me to do so.



God has been great to me all these while. sometimes i really wonder why i get all da drive and strength despite da constant pressure being exerted on me. family. friends. politics. its not alwaes things dat affect me, but relations. dats why i din mention about studies, or even money.




some things have passed fer so long. yet now, when i come to think abt them again, its like somethin dat had jus happened to me yesterday.



da realism, da palpability..




uncanny.

// newsong*

new blog tune.. duno wassup wid da previous one. i think this new one is jus as nice. alwaes with me..


its hard seein me feelin me emotional in ma entries. often its alwaes things dat're makin ppl laugh, or prolly jus some daily happenins, some precious memories..




somethin diff today? heh.


i've undergone numerous introspection.. den i will ask; is it not possible fer a guy and a gurl to remain frens even though one dun like de otha party?



its actually a saddenin thing, really. wid frens playin such important role in ma life.. once a gd fren, once ma confidant, ma support, walkin outta picture jus like dat.




nonetheless, i wanna be single. until i meet *him ; da man God has predestined me to be with. (:


ma God is a miraculous one, da one who hears ma prayers, da one who noes me inside out, da one who noes who's da best fer me. have faith.. Lord, lemme not lose sight of you, hold me tightly.




"its really time fer you to grow up. i had enuf of your clonin-in-progress. i feel terrible talkin to you."

// wehehe

woos. ma room is sooo clean now. *beams-


had tutorial. no lecture. did consumer behv proj. im lovin marketin subjects more each day mans.. though its quite tough and you've gotta be damn current.. but lets jus take it as challengin! challengin yet funnn! reminded me of one of da conversations i had wid saf in lounge.. he enjoys dealin wid PR and is sucha people-person to me. and i was curious why he wasnt in business. found out dat he din actually joined his course bcuz he had interest in it BUT eventually grew to like it (he has a GPA of 3.95!! x:) i guess in da first place i din noe wad marketin was all abt when i put business studies groupin as one of ma first few choices.. jus puttin it fer da sake of a prospect, an alternative cuz i din noe wad kinda portfolio design courses were lookin fer. so.. heh.


BE GLADD. (:


SU's subcomm interview today.. haha. went ard da lounge socializin with familiar faces and their frens. was surprised to see sarah's sista @ lounge today!! hah.. i din even noe she was in TP! (: gosh..


interview went on quite okay. tattie was like da noisiest candidate amongst all dat terence and i have interviewed x:


TPSU - To Protect Serve Unite. this vision is gettin more meaningful to me as days go by. im foreseein a better TPSU, or rather, a betta TP. (:


on a lighter note. i've got a damn funny pic to show! hehhh.





wahahahaha.. xD

// those days..

phew. i finally find time off to blog. previous entry was more of like a "de-stress" kinda entry. so neways.. stupong wanted me to post these pics. remind me of those subcomm days where i used to do lounge duty wid ppl like her and peiqi so often.


those days.. (:


neways, here are some pics we took few days back.. shes stil da retarded stupong i noe from day1!


//newly known as stustu & pongpong.



//kitkat!





//so-not-feminine. *sighs.





//wahahha. mr cadbury. da one in da cadbury ad is HIS TWIN!



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had proj meetin on sat! we waited 40min jus bcuz one of da tutors was talkin to a student. and she made us wait outside like chadchads. grrr. dat dumbo tv-head-lookalike.


AND SPSS is so annoyin. *growls.


//lunch time!



went to yy's hse to do marketin principles proj. heh heh. was funn. shall blog about some happenins..







//doorstep!





we did SOME editin and i sorta explore her livin room! (din get to go into her room though..) nex time maybe. cuz i had to reach church at 430. but neways, we snacked..


//de unglam yy; posted dis to remind her how ugly she look if she continues to be like dat. hiakhiak~ negative reinforcement.



//she actually taped da tin; cuz she said dat if her bro and sis were to find out.. den da whole thin would actually disappear! wooweewow. magical~



i asked if she had fruits at home.. and yays! she found an orange! (ok im soundin more and more retarded alr. eh but its 2.30am now! *yawns)


HEYYY i found anotha twinnie!


//wad i alwaes do..



//end product of an orange.



yy din like to oranges at all. she only like da color.. and i had to finish all dat
big orangey ball all by maself.




//saw this at her computer desk. found out dat it was actually pasted there by her dad.. so sweet rite!!



to those who noes yy. HAHAHAHA. she look damn classic in sec sch mans. lemme show you..







im sucha meanie. x: but i will get ma retribution soon; i'm anticipatin her neva-endin-whinings. hah. nex, we played wid her hamster! somehow reminds me of linggie. lol.





//horrible owner caught in action; she wans to make da hamster squint its eyes like no tomoro.



//kazumi feels fer you, xiaobai.



//hamham fer you. (:



shall continue bloggin abt ma sunday too.. lol. went fer some grocery shoppin wid ma dad afta church. yess, he finally went back to church afta like.. 1 mth? weee. thank God.


//in da cab.. while ma dad was busy lookin at dunowad.



//=.=" he look so funny.





as a daughter.. i ought make daddy happy yes? hmmm..






heh heh. mission accomplished!


//wad we picked..





dats not all! and.. anotha favourite of mineee.





yays..


grapes were wayyy sweet. and kiwis were so yummyyy. *slurps.







im tired. BYE. signin off wid a stupid face. hurhur. oh! and in case you're wonderin why im wearin a diff specs, its bcuz dats ma home specs; yes fer home use only..





oyasuminasai! or maybe i shld say ohayo gozaimasu! >.<

//

oh manss! im goin bonkers. yesterday was MP proj.


TODAY IS SOCIOLOGY.


ahahha. we're so screwed. its meant to be an essay and we actually attempted to do a full report. supposed to be 1500-2000 words AND one of ma grpmate actually churn out a 3000+ words analysis. and dats jus her part.. excludin da rest.


WOOHOOO. kill me!

// prayin fer strength

was kept really busy past few days. good and bad things happened.. but someone taught me dat unfavourable things shld be viewed as challengin. and i give dat person ma utmost respect, sincerely. (:


din get to sleep well, dozed off while tryin to do one of ma proj. >.< hais.. im jus exhausted..


on thurs.. jasmine gave me a mickeymouse hp pouch!! so nice of her. (:




i like it cuz its from ma frenn! heh.


neways! shall start wid james' bday bash! celebrated at suntec's jus noodles. weeee, da prank we played against him made him cry! oh shit.. i think im bcomin to be like tattie alr. dat stupong who is a professional trickster. x:


well, i suggested to PMTB* dat a pair of buddies quarrelin durin dinner time. HAHA. was supposed to be kc and jy, but they couldnt exactly think of a perfect plot. den it suddenly came to me dat maybe yy and maself would be a betta and more convincin pair! lol. and it was proven so!


cast fer da prank;
-leads; kazumi & wyewye
-supportin leads; kc, jy, tat, jam


at da start, we tried to pick fight over small things, but couldnt really work out.. and when dat happened, i was forcin maself not to luf. aiya. but james went to talk to joe on de otha table.. so we were like discreetly discussin abt how we shld go on startin da whole commotion.


and jam said, "kick her leg la.."


AND I DID. lol i think i accidentally kicked her too hard. im sooo sorry, yy. >.< but at least dat was impactful la. hahaha. we had a hitted arguement and i walked out of da restaurant, wid jam runnin afta me.


wad i was told really amused me la. james tried pacifyin yy..


james: (elbowin yy a lil wid a smilin face) dun like dat la..
yy: (annoyed look) wad lar. dun smile at me can, very irritatin.
james: (moved 90degress to da left wid his back facin yy, lookin depressed. and afta dat walked outta da place.)


OHHH NO.


con's reaction to yy was so cute lor. cuz shes da only one in PMTB* who doesnt noe abt da whole thing..


"huhhhh why you scold shifu..." *almost cryin face.



when i saw james walkin out, i was like o_0 shit. wad happened. but i happily hopped in da restaurant and everyone jus gave me a stunt look. LOL. they gotta a damn shock.. yes, upon realisin dat de entire happenin was a sham.


(:


nex, when tat got to noe abt it.. he joined in da cast. LOL. damn you la tattie, i wont forget how you whacked ma head. *growls. but da scene outside toilet part was quite funny when i start to recall everythin. i wanted to act as though i was cryin but it was pretty hard cuz i was wearin contacts.. so i went to da toilet (wid james at one corner, seein me head fer toilet at a fast pace) and put drops of water flowin from ma eyes. tat signalled to me and i walked outta da toilet. he told me say he will scold me but i was lookin out fer james if he saw tat "scoldin" me. tat started quite soft initially, den when i asked him "james can hear meh?", den eh? i saw his head alr! den i told tat "ok, can start liao."


he "scolded" me and dat weepin james came defendin fer me. LOL. but at dat point of time when james said, "bu yao ma kazumi la, bu shi ta de cuo.(dun scold kazumi la, its not her fault.) his gentle tone made me overwhelmed wid emotions and i really cried. (as in cryin fer da show)


leavin some pride fer da dearest jamess.. i shall end! heh heh. but wad happened followin was.. damn funny! hohoho.


even till da end, afta cake cuttin, james couldnt really get over it and still ask yy and i if da whole thing was genuinely a sham. yy asked me to kissed her to prove it to him. hahaha. we were too convincin i guess. >.<


pics* ((sunshine afta da rain~))

//he looks like some lil boy havin party in macdonalds. LOL. wid da crown done by PMTB*.



//poor victim. lol. *bighug to james*



//groupp!






//stupid boy went so close to me deliberately to put cream on ma face.



//yays! mission accomplished. hi5 of victoryy!



//junyong, tryin to tell me how james was cryin. x:



//our dynasty!



//tat & tatsao. xD they both look great in this pic mans. (:



//weee. i requested fer this!



//and this! this is so cuteee.



//yy & maself. *pocky sistas fer life.






not forgettin.. i promised one of da staff to give them free publicity. hahaa. a very customer-oriented f&b outlet.

// disappointment

you're sucha disppointment. i thought you were a man of intergrity and impartiality. but you proved it all wrong.


speakin like you noe wads goin on when you noe NOTHIN.

// hectic week

hectic week. wayyyy hectic.


ppl are complainin and whinin over their projects. me? choosin not to. i have union stuff, academic work and church ministries to juggle. and i guess ma fellow ex-cos are aware dat publication has got lotsa things on hand now.


haha. frens see me or chat wid me online and told me dat i looked so eng-cheng-cheng.(meanin; so damn free) -.= ni dong she mo? wads da point of being so stressed-up? not effective, not productive. i mean a certain amt of stress is good.. and i do feel da stress. but thank God im copin wid it well. (:


spss; tormentin session fer ma grp. HAHA.


//tabulation.






//traumatised yy.



//twistie break; jasmine & nora.




yy ill-treated me can! she stuffed ma mouth wid twisties! grrr. yy and jasmine were bonkers lor. luffin over things dat are not funny. -.= siao dingdong. oh btw..


nowadays frensters are havin more and more halloween users. and these ppl alwaes bcome a subject fer ma classmates to luf abt. HAHAAA.


//yy's worst nitemare. shes damn scared of this.



pretty? no offence.


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heyy! im so glad i've completed da subcomm recruitment poster! thank God! *jumps. but i've yet to complete ma sociology proj. grrr.


heyyy! i got A fer spss! weeee. i did it. thank God.



//banana chocolate! niceee (: in case all of you think dat was ma hand cuz of dat colourful pearl bracelet.. NO its not. hahahah. its jasmine's.. yea. petRrru's.



//two jasmines actin spasticcc.



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TPSU SUBCOMM RECRUITMENT DRIVE STARTS NEX WEEK!! interested parties pls tk note! 25th - 29th july, 5pm to 7pm. fer TAS students; 30th july, 10am to 12pm. (:


do spread da word ard.. thanks!


//brightbright orange banner.



//wahhaha. me & peiqi.




tirin.. this week's gonna be tough. but God will pull me thru! (: have faith!

// long long post.

this is goin to be a longggg post! neways, fer those who wanna see ma new gonggong hairstyle, here goes..


//imma certified nerd.




shall den talk abt ma friday. errr not mine; but ma fellow wormie, eilin! (: btw, wormies is ma secondary sch clique. heh.


initially i told wormies to give her a bdae surprise in sch since eilin had to go sch to do her proj. and da nite bfore, she told me she would be in sch from 9-2! plus she wouldnt be free afta 3.. and considerin sarah had a lesson at 12.. so i den decided dat i shld ask ma clique to meet at 945, jus in case we bump into her. hah!


when all four of us reach sch ard 10.. asked da rest to wait at da benches outside da labs, and tried lookin for eilin in lab3. woohoo. guess wad! called her, only to noe dat she was at home. #$%^&&^.


was like worried dat da cake might melt so.. planB; took a cab down to her place. called her and said dat i was rushin fer time so i had to pass her de present. wahahha, she was quite shocked over da phone when she knew i was goin to her place.


so i passed her da present and left her hse togetha. woooo. i think she was surprised to see sarah holdin a cake, togetha wid kris and shuyan.. hahaha. (:


so nice to see ma wormies again. cuz its like so hard to find a common slot togetha since we all have diff schedules and commitments. *big hug to all wormies*


//birthday gurl-



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met up wid yy, con, jy andddd JAMES! hahaha. this dumb botak booked out.. skipped his graduation ceremony and went out wid PMTB instead! hahah. mans. i think he look betta wid his botak head. i think it suits him! hurhur. i miss him! and everybody misses him!


lunch-ed at taka..

//strawberry ice fer $5. -.="






//takopaochi! i love da scene when all of us were starin at da cuttlefish flakes and got fascinated over its movement. LOL. damn cute.



//this cookie caught ma eye!! its freakin cuteeee la!! >.<




started a dynasty clique. *slaps forehead. but HEY, im da princess! hahahaha. i got a dad, a stepmom, 4 servants, and daddy's advisor + his wife. LOL. you guys can go ard askin who's who la. but obviously, james is da king! yes, ma wang ah ma. lol. nucais, see me mus ge ge ji xiang~ okayy! or else i'll ask daddy to execute yer whole family.


//photostickers! jam was supposed to be IN! but she met up wid us much later.. nex time!



dinner was vegeterianly good. hahaha. special thanks to tattie fer his recommendation! (: ahtan, timmy and joe joined us fer dinner as well..


mustafa-ed wid yy, jam, ahtan and timmy to check out digicams. LOL. couldnt stop luffin durin de entire trip! tan & tim were damn racist. wahahaha.


great day! (:


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yays. got ma digicam on le! thanks to jam and timmy who accompanied me. did quite abit of shoppin.. x:


went fer fellowship and rushed to paris ris park fer krypton's bbq. i miss krypton soooo much! hahaha. all of them were so noisy la!


//bbq!



//ethel, huimin, maself & has! (: i love 'em!



//i miss them sayin "we love jasmine!" durin foc. x:



//kazumi & keatru!



left da place ard 11.40 togetha wid kangarooo! x: so we took pics while waitin fer bus! (:


//wahahah. he cant do siewmai face.



//bleah.



//all smiles (:





"i alwaes smile over da pleasant moments we've had togetha in our frenship. i love and respect you as a fren, not seekin any returns. yet i duno why you've to strain this fine frenship wid your rantings.. havin me to swallow ma pride and act as though nth had happened."


i detest being shouted at since young, but i grew up learnin not to retaliate.