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hmm. its kinda late now. but i think im gettin used turnin in only at wee hrs again. okay thats bad.


gettin personal..


i cried 3 times today; for all different reasons.. oh wells. i know i've been rather down these days; just felt that ma constant efforts towards this friendship i very much treasure is unjustifiable. you're just takin me fer granted. tell me if you're a person who loves being shouted at.


1st time:
cried during work. after a teleconversation with ma sis-in-law. they arent supportive of ma pursuit in a makeup career/creative line. ma mum thinks i ought to get a proper job, preferably a govt job that pays off well. to her, this skill im gonna take up is a waste of time and money. they gave me more crap to why i shldnt take up the course.

screw it okay. why was i ever so silly to seek help from the wrong people. you only want me to walk in a way you deem is right fer me, without even showin a slightest sense of understanding. am not heeding your advice because you people were never a role model fer me.


2nd time:
cried at home. spoke to ma dad about ma course fees. i thought we drifted alot fer the past 2 yrs.. but when i told him abt this, he merely said: "follow your heart and do what you think is good fer you." tears just flowed uncontrollably.. thanks dad.

he might not be able to provide me or support me fully financially, but im thankful because he granted me a support i've always needed from someone blood-relatedly close to me. i will do you proud.


3rd time:
spoke to tom online. im still gonna say it here again, its great pride knowin such lovely and talented bunch of designers like you all. loves. no worries, loveletters still included! :)

you're definitely one of those whom i'll remember fer a lifetime too! thanks fer all the fun and memories. as expected from you, i will always be here fer you guys. sweethearts.



am blessed with rainbows after each stormy rain, thats why.


treasure all that you have before you, NOT what you dont have thats beyond you.

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weeeeee. finally decided on what to wear fer D&D. double yayness fer me because i dont have to spend money renting costume! (though i really agree $35 is a very reasonable rate!)


cool bananas. after the consultation session today, i think im prolly gonna take up another diploma. jus imagine kazumi as a professional makeup artiste in time to come.. wooo. beloveds in christ pls keep me in prayer! :)


most prob thursday would be ma last day workin at airport! gonna take a break from now.


time fer photos!

230307 fri; costume scouting @ plazasing.


>> ma chippy chaota chip.


>> hanah. cliche toilet shots..



>> huhu! giant tweetybird from hangten.


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250307 sun; dinner @ jack's place orchard.


>> ma first visit and also the last. its a very nice underground place actually.. but i din even know of its existence until aunty kemmy told me it was there since her dating days (shes alr 50yrs old now).. lol.



>> all smiles! love in christ.. :)


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260307 mon; hangin out @ bugis. (with only pics of jia and i) haha. :D


>> the super xinfu girl who just came back from tokyo.. i'd really love to visit japan some day.. /:

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270307 tues; movie date with jingting! :)


mr bean's holiday was hilariously silly! but i wished the crowd was less cold and laughed more. would have made jing and i felt less intimidated because we were laughin almost all the time. i think the scene i remembered most vividly was the stupid chicken runnin la! hahahha. but mr bean was stupider to chase after it man. 3.5/5!


>> shes one of the dearest to me.. thanks fer all the liangtehs and cold remedies.. :)



>> she seriously can laugh nonstop lohh.



>> ahah! there! stupid chicken!



>> you dont have to watch his shows to know he's funny.



>> hhahahha. some moron went to tear down its poor head lah! tsk.


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randomly presenting...


>> woohoo. ma latest joy; issey miyake's l'eau d'issey limited edition.


gosh. cant wait fer D&D. wonderin how it'd be like. fer those who are attendin, see you there!




as long as the peace stays with me..

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alrite alrite.. i know i hvnt been updating much thesedays. i need to catch up on ma slp you see..


i think the most frequently asked question now is.. "so what are you intending to do after you graduate?"


hmm. honestly, up to this point of time, I AM STILL UNSURE! because everythin i have in mind now are just plans.. am still prayin for a path God wants to place and use me in. i dont dare to really share my plans with many people actually.. why so?

1) they doubt your choice.
2) discouragin comments.
3) still too vague.
4) i dont even know whats really ahead of me!


you can say i dont really have to care about what others think since its ma life afterall.. but well, negative comments usually brings on negative impact on me. sometimes i just wish i could be as confident a person most people perceive me as.


i guess im just too afraid that i'd be complacent one day. nonetheless, im still very glad that i have confidence in God's guidance, which i deem this conviction as something of greater importance.


been thinkin alot.. the next phase of ma life. how'd it be like..


anyway! im havin a great time lately, despite a series of emotional rollercoasters. night classes. prayer meetings. fellowship. cycling session @ ecp with church youths. leox outin. hangin out with grace and joy. and ktv session with jerry!


ktv-ing with him is tremendous stress i tell you. can you imagine! i didnt even really dare to sing in front of him! i think i only got very warmed up during the 4th hour! hahahaha. yikes.


to think i used to select any songs continuously together with my casual friends who loves singin. bah! i guess singin with a pro is afterall, very different. :(




i got updates on someone thru jerry too. im just super disappointed and digusted with him, and the whole of this particular industry. thank God this person is almost non-existant in ma heart now! (though some may think its great honour to know him!) pui.


on the other hand, im feelin kinda proud for jerry actually.. cant really explain why either. you know.. the "you're ma friend, im proud of you!" kinda thing? lol nvm. but to me, he's just a very very clever person lah. do well in uni! and cheers to our 7 years of friendship! :)


oh btw, will post pictures with grace and joy soon. its always such pleasure to be able to hang out with lovable people! huhu. :)


till then!

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// OFF!

woo. finally a day OFF fer me!


btw im currently workin part-time inside airport t2. have to wake up at awful hrs like 4am in the mornin, workin all the way from 6am to 4pm. but then agn, i have to admit i love the workin environment there. :)


had a well-deserved rest today. and a well-spent treat to a great movie with lovely ppl like grace and siwei. haha. grace and i kept laughin at stupid jokes we came up with durin the movie, which must have got siwei into thinkin that we are the most absurd ppl on earth. but nonetheless, thanks fer drivin us ard! :)


dreamgirls is a really nice show, do catch it. on top of that, catch JUST FOLLOW LAW if you havent. its a totally chio ka peng movie. i rate both 4.5/5!


and i love watchin movies with grace! because i think she's one of the few who doesnt think im crazy whenever i laugh over the slightest thing. instead, she laughs along with me, and sometimes without knowin why!


hahah. v cute i know.



>> you can laugh with me, and i can cry with you.



>> ahhaha. saw this while walkin ard TM. super skinny lah! i think dale's expression is so funny. (and yy, i know you will imitate when you see this! silly bunny.)


>> cute? this shall be our common possession. im postin this up so she'd remember to meet up with me soon. :D


some random pics..


>> dropped by chaichee last thurs (22/2), just to visit some dear teachers i miss..



>> ghf's steamboat session last sat (24/2) @ carlene's place. :)



>> ahhaha. a cuddly cute sheep.


hmm. 2nd march marks someone's birthday!


HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIMMY BOY! :)
ahahha. lao le lah you. hvnt been seein much of you after you're in ns. pls take good care of yourself and drop me a msg when you're back in sg okay. smile!