// lookin forward!

yay. i cant help lookin forward to next monday! its children's day and ma OFF DAYYYY. muahaha OFF DAY! HOLIDAY! :D


worklife at childcare has been manageable so far. i think kids are fantastic.. frm playgroup to primary sch. haha. i've spotted that few whom i love to disturb. yea, they're the so-called naughtier ones. tho they do and say silly things to make teachers angry, but.. i just find their mannerisms and thoughts so amusin. cute. (:


oh anyway. there was a last min assessment for makeup class last tues. trainer gave away a mystery gift as a reward..

deeply honoured. i will continue to work hard. (:

words couldnt express how thankful i was; granted me with something that i wasnt expectin to receive.. fyi, thats a A* tweezer! good stuff okay. (: (:


oh btw, i had a new haircut last monday. :D okay lah, i know thats really nth new. bah. feelin kinda retarded when i tk photos now. ma memory has been gettin worse since i started workin at praise. gosh. time flies, and theres just never-ending matters for you to handle.


i need the strength from You to carry on.. Lord, bring me thru.

// kazumi the one-eyed monster.

was on mc today. stayed home the whole day due to ma bee-stung lookin eyes. hahahaha. really lah! annoyingly painful and ugly. just one of the worst physical mishap that can ever happen to me. :(


itchy eyes every night, but with even itchier hands to rub them. can see the membrane-like structure in the eye gettin all crumpled up. blahhh. sorry.


and yes, missed a&p today too. rahhh.


ive so much work to do, yet i cant seem to focus. whats wronggggg!


btw, im lookin for female models for ma exam. VOLUNTEER ANYONE? :D trust that i'll do gd. its ma exammmmm! pretty plsssss..

amanda, the event emcee. (:

the makeup artistes. (:

since im said to be of one who has indifferent taste in style...


someone suggested that i shld come up with a wishlist for ma upcomin birthday because its quite hard to think of smthg that i would really fancy. i used to think comin up with a wishlist is quite a thick-skinned act, but not so for now. well, at least your beloved friends know what you're in need of and give you somethin that is v useful to you, and not some pretty white elephant.

the 1st two items can be found in kino, the last item is actually a huge white shoulder bag, with gold stripes and the adidas wording.


anw, dun feel obligated to buy anything if you are not ready to. its meant for ppl who are totally clueless in what to get for me.


afterall, its just a wishlist. (:


p/s: msg me if you interested in makin ma wishlist come true. i dun wanna end up being an owner of solely 10 "face forward" books. :D

// love rainy mornings.

love rainy mornings. love rainy days. cant believe i fell aslp on the bus this mornin, and actually missed the stop i was supposed to alight while on ma way to church.


been slpin really lil these few days. on weekdays, i'm leavin home before sunrise, reachin home way beyond sunset. anyhow, first day at work was pretty okay. rahh. guess it really requires alot of prayer. i reckon ma stay there wont be an easy one, and im not intendin to disclose reasons here.. still, the main issue isnt with children, or difficult children. no matter what, i pray for a heart to continue lovin these kids who requires the attention they never had.


i dun have much social life now. haa. but okay, i went for arty's POP on wed night (because bible study was cancelled for 2 wks). POP at night was kinda strange. and i seriously din know how they managed to march in the dark.


din really tk many photos. but i saw many friends in commando like aw, desmond, edwin, ah seng, sean's bro(rayner?), plus quite a few others. and others who went like sean and family, drewz, yeechen, yeeping, guanghong, yy, kaiwei plus darlinks. haa. cool. and now, i realised that i have quite a few common friends with art. haha.

3 mths flew by!

got to know that he has a v pleasant godsis too. but they really seemed like real siblings to me. not in terms of looks la, but can see that she really tks care of him.. anw, its not the typical secondary sch kinda godbro, godsis kinda thing. they've shared family ties..


oh man. gonna turn in early tonight. another rise&shine at 5.30am awaits.


and mr arthur ng, pls get your checkup asap!!

// downpour of emotions!

the followin would be a pretty lengthy entry.


ma temp contract with fairteck holdings ended yesterday. and lina joined me for the last day of sales at the pushcart. towards the end, i asked her.. "we'd have chance to work again right?"


"sure we do!" she replied.


that really made me smile and ma heart, a lil warmer. i thank God for blessin me with such nice ppl in ma life. somehow, it just reminds me of ma internship days, thankful for knowin ppl like chris, cally, shelby, sohchin, serene. woo! (:

hehe. wonder if they still have these with them..

yup i will miss rachel and lina, for sure.


i cant continue ma contract with them because i was led to serve in another area. so.. friday will mark ma first day @ praise. its not a well-paid job, given the workin hrs and committment. but to me, i'd see it as a way to bless a sister-in-christ who's in urgent need. moreover, i'd be workin with beloveds like carlene and aunty jasmine! the experience im gonna get will beat the pay itself. (:


so here am i, on ma well-deserved one day break, pourin out all thoughts and feelings.


anticipation failed today. im stranded home now because im havin v bad sore eyes agn. seriously duno whats wrong man. i din even rub it the night bfore, yet it just got so bad this mornin. felt so sorry to have cancelled a meet-up with a fren whos enlistin really soon.


***

ma day ended off on a low note last night. after class, i rushed off w/o sayin goodbye to anyone. i just felt that i wanted to get home asap.


it all happened durin the NTU hall 13's pageant last fri. eileen (who was previously from TP), happened to be one of the contestants for the pageant. and i was so glad to have bumped into a familiar face!


"lezlie!! shes ma poly friend, eileen! we were of the same batch!" i exclaimed with excitement. you can imagine the kinda smile i was havin on ma face man. literally a :D


but i was crestfallen upon the response he gave. "oh isit? ppl in uni liao leh. then what are you doin here?"


ha-ha. i din know how to react you know. but after a quick pause, in a jokingly manner, i said "wah teacher, so now you're ashamed of me alr huh?"


the silence that followed was freakin awkward.


im feelin pretty overwhelmed by the emotions and all when i've decided upon this career direction. so after class, the girls raised the issue up with ma trainer agn while i was asked to lock up the makeup lab. when i entered the office, i passed him the keys and signed ma attendance. then jenn said, "see lah cher, you hurt a meek and fragile heart."


all i heard from him was, "she shld be proud of her own decision what!"


they continued by sayin "at different age, ppl see things and think differently........"


at that moment, i didnt think that i shld stay any longer, so i left w/o a word.


on ma way back, thoughts bombarded ma mind..


"proud of ma own decision? of course i am!" the only thing i din understand was, am i that deservin of sucha trainer who destructs a student's morale? so far, i dun remember anythin he said that is especially encouragin to me.


im only 20. i gave up furtherin ma studies, a campus life, ma social life, to go on a pursuit with so many obstacles i've to cross, be it financially or moral support from family. i even have to battle within maself, to ensure that things doesnt endanger my relationship with God..


i feel sorry for ma friends because i can hardly meet up with them. i miss all of them, but whenever they ask me out, what else could i say possibly besides sorry?

ma 1st and 2nd halves of each day.

feelin so tired...

yet each time when i see that i've done a good makeup on a person, i cant help but praise God for givin me an ability like this! still i thank God for those ppl he sent who encouraged me along this rough and patchy road. thanks lovelies.


thanks to you for even bother readin this lenghty entry, up to this very point. (: i know on whom i shall depend on, so feel happy for me.. your well-wishes and encouragements would do me just fine! (:

gee. power of long shutter.. (x

what would i be, if not for You?

// sentimentals day + keong's 21st

sat was a much-awaited sentimentals' outing! finally a good catchup before david goes botak. it was a pity our dear mr tan sernming couldnt join us (due to his sprained ankle). tsk.


when the 4 of us got settled down at our dinin place, we giggled to ourselves, as we started imaginin the very same scene 10yrs down the road. some things just never change...

nana said yy changed; from her taste in guys, to her current "out-goingness", to her physical appearance. i din have much to say. all i can see is that she seems to be enjoyin her life in NTU v much. its such coincidence that she's stayin in hall 11! the whole bunch of hall 11 peeps whom i met thru work not too long ago; kudos to lester. and.. yy and liping are room-mates! coolness.


nana's feelin stressed up over never-ending assignements and projects in SMU. but well, i believe she'll do just fine. she isnt the runner-up in our marketing cohort for nth! jiayou na! (:


david's pretty much the same. he's still the entertainer of the grp, the joker, and the one who gets all of us "lame-struck". lol. he'd be joinin the policeforce soon. i think he shld be the lamest police alive.

hehe. shot of nostalgia. but yy's no longer the ah dai!

the trio, loves. (:

sentimentals 4/5!

"the bickerers"...

... and the "innocent parties"

future mr policeman! (plus yy's handkiss)

haha. i took random shots while they were decidin where to go for dinner.. and since stevenlim happened to be one of our random topics that popped outta nowhere. inspiration came.. :D

(thats what i heard from yy. we so happened to witness steven lim pounce on poor girls walkin by the streets of orchard when we were on our way to meet na.)

so verdict is: SEE HIM, JUST RUN!!

hahahahaha. i cant stop laughin at yy's cheekok. but the thing is i cant disclose much abt cheekok either. for those who remembers the character, cheekok, in gao3 xiao4 xing2 dong4. good for you! yy's eyecandy resembles just like him! hahahha.

picture purrrrfect: sentimentals.

***

part 2 was keong's 21st.


we almost couldnt recognise keong in his current size! thanks to ns, he lost abt 13-14kg. lol.

he smiles the same. (:

keong and maself.

the company: yy, maself, keong, yc, denise.

our marketing fun. miss keong and his marketing oei!

the much fitter keong. (:

yy's heart ached when she saw the weight keong lost. but i honestly thought keong looks gd now.


anyway, fri would be ma first day @ praise student childcare. so pls do keep me in prayer yea. i recently picked up a book from church's library, titled "i kissed dating goodbye", by joshua harris. hoho. really good boooook. after readin the first few pages, i just knew i had to read it thru. its a book highly recommendable to all youngsters.. shall share more abt it the next time! (:


loves, kazumi

// smoozeee week!

lol. sellin smooze is quite fun!


like.. a santarina givin out free samples, seein delighted faces enjoyin their newfound icy lowfat desert. :D BUT carryin the samples from office to work isnt really that fun. yea arm muscles are back! to think i stopped trainin fer so long. cheh.


met up with jimmy on tues after work, bfore makeup class. woo! so nice to have someone carryin the icebox for me after work. *smirks



hair class tmr.. homework done last wk, but trainer had smthg on. so i dismantled the whole thing, and i hvn got time to redo it agn. )x the french twist took me 2 hrs okay. kept havin many failed attempts.. i mean the final one i did (that was ready to be submitted) wasnt that satisfactory to me either.. ):


introducin ma new mate:


workin life and being a part-time student is seriously.... no life. feelin so worn-out! i need a breather. like when?? ):


im just wishin for a day of couch-potatoin. or start scrapbookin...



fix your eyes on final destiny; over things that are of eternal value.

// mixed.

friday was yayness becus i finally watched "secret"! you know its just one of the movies that will get you jaded for quite some time, the feelin of being immersed in fantasy? lol. in short, the movie's great, for i just cant stop thinkin abt it, solvin the mysteries that took place in the amazin plot. indeed, jaychou never fail to amaze me. :D


its a love/hate relation towards ridiculously romantic shows. they are just so unrealistic okay, merely things that wont happen real-life. yet the irony is, ppl love the feelin of livin in fantasies. the thing is, such incidents are only suited to take place in shows. personally, i cant even take such mushy stuff when it happens to me real-life; somehow, it feels too unreal. *hair stands*


so its time to be zap back to reality! walking in His light..


*concentration, concentration. this is a game of concentration.*


ANNOUNCEMENTS! :D

1. rejoice rejoice! i've got 3 more new sisters-in-christ last sunday! (x

2. adara pushcart's gonna be converted to SMOOZE fruit ice! (i still love adara anyway! honestly i dont think educatin ppl abt the pdt is boring IF the person's really interested. owells, too bad not many are. wait till swa-kus know the power of coconut virgin oil man. im seein too many ppl on streets with unkempt hair and dehydrated skin. the simple solution is adara! experience the goodness yourselves. still not convinced? bleah, you dont know what you're missin.)

3. i've got lobang for shirt printing. havin problems sourcin for suppliers who only print shirts in small batches?? fret not. just tag/sms me if you wanna know more. its even possible if you wanna custom-make your very own tee. NO MINIMUM QUOTA at all. (:



well well, i cant believe the contract's ending. as much as i wanna continue workin with lina and rachel.... i know i just have to move on to something that i've passion for. ah. life's bittersweet.