// YAY MC!

ON MC FER A DAY!! SHEER PLEASURE, ITS TRUE. (:


PUBLIC APLOGY to xiaofang. really sorry fer what happened this mornin.. i felt damn terrible when i knew she was still waitin fer me at 8.35am! next time if i dont reach bedok station by 8.25am, pls leave without me okay?


man. LO's droppin by tomoro. cant wait cant wait.


and mr alvin ting, if you are readin this, i just wanted to tell you that i found your email addressin to all your VIPs was very sweet. you've left footprints in ma heart since those putus days! hereby wishin you all the very best!



something's goin wrong with our friendship. would you tell me why? call me sensitive; but i sense we arent as before.. your care, enthusiasm, carefree nature..

gone. i want ma sista back.

//

freelance make-up artiste, should i?

// simple life.

service, choir, hymns, prayers and praise. i want to have a heart to enjoy whatever im doin to make God smile, forever. yup. forever does exist. and im thankful to be part of eternity, the wonderful aftalife that im gonna have afta i die..


anyways, mum drove dad and i to parkway today. (because i wanted to get a new phone and new plan, and ma dad's signature is required cuz ma current plan is still under his name.)


neva dreamt that there'd still be this one day whereby ma parents and i'd get to sit in the same car again. a strange feelin overwhemled me as mum drove past that familiar stretch of road, and ma eyes suddenly got teary. things were just so different then and now.


tho i knew the possibility of them gettin back togetha again is near zero.. i just couldnt help but still have a lil dream about it; the what ifs.


i choose to believe its God's will that they are no longer togetha; and i thank God it was because of all these that i got back on track.. im convicted to walk in His will and break the curse of broken marriages that has been passin down the family line. i will be different, only with God.


met up with jensen and dasao too, was great seein them again. i really wish that God will make a way fer her and free her from such bondage. it just hurts me seein her havin to go thru all these.


alrite! cut the unhappy, emo issues. i got ma wayy early present from dasao. the red belt i wanted to buy from m)phosis. yay. thanks! (:



scoopZ icecream with parents and nephew. (:



the dasao i loveee.



yesssss i know you are gonna say shes very pretty!



yay! contented.



hahahahha. the humongous watermelon in jensen's hands.



lo'real free makeover! thats why i looked kinda different today! ahhah. and thats ma polaroid fer the contest.


weeeeee. i enjoyed ma day so much. but tomoro's a mondayyyy.


you're happier when life's simple.

// howww

woooooo. its.. FRIDAY YAYNESS!


SIP aside. i think im startin to face problems with ma P2 student alr. wahahaha. i can explain a sum fer 2 lessons but she still dont get it. im feelin the extra pressure bcuz im being paid to teach. but ma student hor, always play tikam tikam with me.


me: "this one x or +?" (correct is x)
alicia: *hesitates and whispers* "ppppppllllussss"
me: "you sure?"
alicia: *hesitates and whispers* "timesss.."
me:"so its x or +?"

*long pause*

me: "do you understand what the question is talkin about?"
alicia: "jiejie i dont understand."

*prompt, explain, draw, underline, illustrate.*

alicia: *confidently* "times! times!"
me: "why times?"
alicia: *pause* "errrrrrrrrr..."
me: "you understand anot?"
alicia: "no."


i dont know what to do to make her really understand leh. her answers sway like jellyfish everytime i go "you sure?" hahahha. but thats like damn common among kids. im stuck leh. to me its like, seeing the parent's money spent on the cycle above.


God, pls grant me patience and wisdom..


P2.. still in the blurblur phase i guess. but im worried lah, her exams are comin. and she relys heavily on ma prompts when she does her work. if not, she will just keep "eee, er, hmm, orrr, ah." as you can see, it is a continuous cycle. becuz i said "when you dont understand ask me", so she'll just keep tellin me "i dont understand."


howww..


tmr's on campus trainin @ TP. hoho. damn happy lah! finally no office wear. can see all ma friends again! yayyy.


SIP shant stop me from postin up PHOTOS! wahahah.

>> tues; salvo's performance @ kreta ayer CC fer POLYFORUM! our full-of-laughter lorry ride. (:



windy windy! buddy pq! (:



our very messy hair!



inspired by choon. lol.


>> thurs; felicia's 19th bday chalet! (afta tuition and a long day @ work.)



happy birthday fel! (: you're older then me liaooo.



whahahah! smelly army boy.



he dont wanna show all of us his botak head! ): (that guy tryin to come into the picture is lim chong guang)



lol. he is just so funny lah.



james!! he's in bliss!



choo choo train, our whacky fun times!! (con was the photographer.)


i really had a great time laughin with james, con and jy. we've made eatin-at-macs seem like the most fun thing to do on earth, just fer this clique, PMTB. haha. *lovess.


i was quite surprised you know. its only 22nd sept and ppl are askin me how am i celebratin ma bday alr. hehe. thanks. i find it sweet. but so sad lah, i'd still be havin SIP. it'd be a bluey monday on 2nd oct. *sulks* still, i dont intend to really party out and have fun. dont know why also, i find maself really weird sometimes. haha.



fer some reason, i just know you'll forget ma bday. yes, you will. prove me wrong can?

// (:

hey! true enough. God made me smile thru friends on msn!


hahaha! thanks kenji, james, fy, hanwoooi! yay.


i miss lijun sweetheart, mickeymouse sista lynnlynn, crabbyjuan, chippy yy and all ma otha kakis on SIP, and linggie ma kichad. i miss bonkers GARANG. i miss happenin TP. I MISS SCHOOL.



now we all know why SIP is good; cuz you'll treasure your sch days even more!

//

SIP = no life.


dreadin it more as the days go by. i hate telemarketing!


everyone, includin part-timers, in ma company uses laptop.. and i dont even have a proper one. the screen isnt workin, and i've to work with the big bulky screen. if you know me well enough, i dont complain even when circumstances are bad.


but this time.. i cant help it. i just need to rant it out to feel betta.


since ma laptop screen wasnt workin well, it was connected to this LCD screen. i was fine with that. but 2 days afta, the LCD screen was taken away and someone changed it to the near extinction big bulky PC screen. like haha? im usin an antique in a so "high tech" company.


its not that im complainin because im usin an antique. but you shld know how much radiation those old conventional kinda screen produces! and the height of it is just real bad, and the screen is like placed very near ma eyes. i cant sit furtha away from the table cuz there're ppl sittin behind me, they're guys and they need more space to move ard. sigh. im havin bad headaches these 2 days, feelin horrible. get tired out more easily. 9am - 6pm. k fine, theres an hr break, but still its no joke facin a stupid computer fer so long.


the number of cells died per hr shld be quite high.


God might have placed me in such a situation cuz He already have given me enough strength to pull thru. i really need His comfort.


today's bible study class was great. i bought a book today! 365 children's prayer.


one of the prayer goes:

Help me through sad times, O Lord,
when i dont have joy.
show me somethin funny to make me happy again.

// charles.

day 2's much betta. i think daniel's presence really eased me alot. hahaha. a real joker, kinda reminded me of VICTOR RAJ! too bad he's not in the marketin room fer 90% of the time. /: but maybe its a good thing, he'd probably babble more "unhealthy" and nonsensical stuff if hes in. *hear no evil*


ppl in the marketin room are really vocal, and they speak with professionalism, well, cept fer the smallfry me. haha. EBS is a business consultin firm lah. i've got 3 marketin peeps in the same room as i do. some of their conversations are quite funny. haaa.


i dont think i will blog very often from now on, ma life will more or less be very routine. the followin 11 wks go like this:


MONDAY;
- SIP 9am-6pm
- free from 6pm onwards (woo! ma only free day!)

TUESDAY;
- SIP 9am-6pm
- tuition @ punggol 7pm-830pm

WEDNESDAY;
- SIP 9am-6pm
- salvo trg @ TP 7pm-9pm

THURSDAY;
- SIP 9am-6pm
- tuition @ punggol 7pm-830pm

FRIDAY;
- SIP 9am-6pm
- salvo trg @ TP 7pm-9pm

SATURDAY;
- zingo trg
- church fellowship

SUNDAY;
- Lord's day


and well, of course.. i've to clear manymany mails everyday. i had 60+ mails today when i had less than 10 unchecked mails yesterday. WHY? because GARANG lovesssss floodin mailboxes. so thats part of ma routine too. read and clear emails, laughin with them on msn. lol.


neways, i met up with charles at bedok interchange afta tuition. was great seein him afta fer so long. had a mini catchin up session! feelin very tired, but i couldnt miss out havin a chance to catch up with great friends like him. moreover, we lived pretty near each other. well, enjoy your remainin days of your 12day break.


everytime we meet, its always endless teasings.. and hmm, endless sharings. (:

// first day at work!

HELLO!


here to read about ma first day at work? all i can say is.. i just wish the followin 11 weeks WILL PASS BY FASTER.


is that enough? haa. i needed some colours to brighten up ma entry today bcuz ma job today was dropdead borin. im supposed to send individualised (not mass) emails to 500+ contacts on the database by next tuesday. (and in between clamps lotsa otha work) i dread today's work cuz i made a hell grave mistake. its quite hard to explain, but just read on.


i wanted so much to bang the wall when i realised what happened, even tho i knew whats sent out cant be unsent. but ma supervisor, serene, was kind enough to say "hmm whats done cannot be undone, just be more careful.."


its very much like keyin in entries fer SPSS, the difference being, you can afford to key in wrong values and just redo it again fer SPSS, but you cant unsend an email. imagine, you're representin the marketin team notifyin your potential clients about latest promotions, and they saw the word "FWD", with the other unrelated/undeleted messages. like wth?


those readin the mails arent ordinary sales rep, but directors, managers, finance controllers, HR ppl.


AHHHH. okay. hahahaha. i think you all got the picture. sooo, that was a bloody stupid mistake i made. i did make an effort to be extra careful, but somehow, things went wrong. but if you were thinkin WHY DIDNT I SEE THOSE UNDELETED STUFF ANYWAY! that came much quicker to ma mind, so.. i then realise the image was overlappin those words i was supposed to delete. fer the followin mails, i was too afraid to use the template i was asked to, so i started on a clean mail instead.


so they say, interns are suppose to make mistakes? but at the end of the day, i realise it was more than just makin mistakes, it means havin to learn to accept the mistakes made!


sigh. strictly office wear fer the next 11 weeks, thats why im countin down. i just know how you all understand how i feel, "oh man, kazumi in office wear fer 11wks??"


hehe. i hope all ma friends are copin well fer SIP. and yea, tmr's gonna be a better day!


i wanna be a student foreverrrr! so i can have the usual hangouts with friends and throw our books high up in the air when exams end! boo. all of us are bound to miss our life as a student when we enter the workin society. you will then know what "NO LIFE" really means. so dont complain, enjoy what you have now. (:


PHOTOS! (:
**place cursor over photos fer captions.

sigh. i miss all ma friends. i miss gg fer nite classes at church. *shuts eyes* just 11weeks.



GIVE THANKS! (:

oh yesss. thank God i passed all. no As tho, but no Ds either. (:

// (:

fun filled day with jun, kenji and angel. (: *loves. thanks fer remindin me that ma world is still revolvin ard beloved chums and endless laughta.

shall post our photos soon. ^^


yea. kenji's ma new friend. he is jun's "sista". hahaha. its amazin how none of us felt the least bit of awkwardness when all of us were togetha. but i gotta say this, he sounded SO MUCH like kerson. and durin our ktv session, it was like hearin ker sing, and duetin with him. lol.


woke up extremely early today fer SIP launch. SIP! i know i will survive thru God's grace. unlike all ma friends, i dont feel anxious or scared about ma SIP at all. i guess that anxiety wouldnt help much too aye? anyways. im attached to EBS Consultin Pte Ltd.


hahaha. just as i wished fer. I DIN GET IN MEDIACORP! :P thank God. ma supervisor's a marketin specialist. heard that she's petite and those no-nonsense kind. but owells. positivity's the word. pray fer me lahhh, the company's at REDHILL. i gotta know xiaofang from diploma in business too, same company but diff supervisor. she's at HR department, and her person in charge's the CEO. LOL.


big shot can. yay. xiaofang, lets pull thru togetha this 11 weeks. from bedok to redhill. *pops confetti*


**


here's some pictures taken durin the POP (BMT passin out parade) of ma commando friends; edmund, kerson, jimmy. sameee platoon. such coincidence.











man. i need slp soooo badly.. and i need to remind maself to get a new alarm clock. ):


oyasuminasai.

// memories.

i was SO very surprised and glad at the same time when i saw mrs teo at chaichee today. din know she went back there to teach.. she left at 2003, and came back at 2006. haha. her kids sure have grown much bigger.. and mr anwar seems to be doin well. happy fer him. anyways, ma visit to see ms lim was futile. bah. i'll probably drop by sometime next week. heard that many teachers have left, most left fer early retirement.


i looked at the buildin and its surroundins, much prettier now. memories so strong, yet the feelin has changed so drastically. memories are called memories because they cant make time come to a standstill. like who can, but God.


sedated. nothin's makin me annoyed.. i think im gettin numb to ppl's mistreatment. just hafta remind maself "as long as i havent mistreated anyone."


hah. benjamin's flyin to taiwan tmr fer some tough NS trainin. andrew and ahtan shld be bald by now. yy, laymin, desmond, pammie are all leavin fer OSIP next week. man, pls come back in one piece.



i cried in ma dreams last night because smthg precious of mine was taken away, a piano. (i dreamt i already had one.) but im thankful that the most precious can neva be taken away from me, and thats ma relationship with Christ.


i wished you could teach me piano. i aspire to be as good as you.

// ma student, alicia.

've been feelin lethargic these two days. didnt feel like goin anywhere. i think i know why. but why! its awful to hear about things that you hate to hear. and go, actin like you're enjoyin the news that was brought before you.


nvm its over.


ping asked a few of us out to have a farewell gatherin fer yy. few weeks back, i asked yy if we could go on fer another duo sentosa trip before she leaves fer her OSIP, she told me she wont have the time fer it. felt pretty upset over it.. yet i actually missed the possibly last outin i could have with her yesterday. feelin unwell at the wrong time! im sorry.


anyways, i still went fer ma first tuition lesson that evenin. a P2 student at punggol. what an experience, i only got this assigment on monday. happy. excited. anxious. a whirl of emotions with countless questions floodin ma head. like.. is she gonna be an obedient girl? is she smart? is she adorable? how are her parents like? how am i gonna make her enjoy her journey of learnin? what kinda rewardin works? will her grades improve afta ma guidance? etc etc.


lol. maybe im soundin really stupid. ppl ard me may have several students with them. whereas fer me, its just a P2 kid. but i find teachin.. more like, a responsibilty to me. and i dont know how would i fare as a tutor.


first lesson went on fine. her name's alicia. smart, pretty, chatty, lovable. (: alicia has a younger sista, audrey, 4 yrs old. very sweet and lovable too. hahaha. she was like sittin ard with us the table most of the time, meddlin with ma stationary and keepin them fer me. lookin and observin us thru the lesson.


and randomly she tapped ma hand, looked at me in the eye sayin, "jiejie, i love you." alicia looked at her sista and nodded in agreement. hahah. i almost melted.


how sweet is thattttt. i love kids fer their innocence.. audrey tapped me again and said, "jiejie, can i kiss you?" lol.


i want to bring them to church so much. prayin fer God's time to come. (:


yay. finished watchin "my lovely samsoon" alr. and im goin back to ma secondary sch tomoro. woots. heh heh.

// tiring day

phew. tirin long day at school.. heres how the day went. i dont think i will look nice in the shots at all man. and i crown aliff the joker of the day. i din know he was that cranky till today. HAHA. silly moshi mushroom.



>> "show more teeth, yes"



>> the crew rawks lah.



>> gettin ready..



>> RM reps. chekmeng, nicole. (:



>> wee. i think this is damn cool. but im not in this. haha.



>> mr jeffrey ho. he requested the makeup artiste to give him a sharper nose. lol. i was laughin most of the time when he was at the studio..



>> lookin pretty! ms reena. (:



>> the casual ppl; liling, maself, nicole, jacq.



>> marketers took photos here too! our classy new baby; brand hub.



that was how i spent ma day; from 830am to 630pm. joined garang fer dinner at PS. crapped, talked, laughed, made noise. haha. more outings to come man, yes, without andrewwww. wee.


>> he's best at this! lol. say goodbye to fats! HAHAHA.


when i got online just now, i was wonderin why so many ppl had a turtle in front of their nicks..





so this was why.. read article. thanks arty. lol. but the turtle symbol is still ugly, no?


life's like this. you'll neva know what will happen to you the very next moment..



thank God i'm saved. are you?

// self-control.

its because of care and concern, then ppl quarrel rite?


at least i see both parties gettin angry from a reasonable standpoint, and not because of their own selfishness. but its scary when tempers flare and voices blare.


maybe its tellin me to practise greater self-control when i get angry next time.


and oh, remember i mentioned abt the photoshoot audition few weeks back? hurhur. =B