// why?

ma siblings and i planned fer a mothers' day dinner @ jack's place. will post pictures and all in anotha later entry.


so while waitin fer our food, ma bro-in-law was like browsin thru the pictures in ma camera and started askin which of them is ma boyfriend.


i told him i was single, and he din took in what i said. it set me thinkin..


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when being asked about ma lovelife, or "scandals" you might say, i'd jus smile and say, "enjoyin singlehood. patiently waitin fer ma God-sent".


some end up in disbelief, some go "you mean you're lack of suitors?", while the rest will jus say "sometimes, being alone can be really lonely. when you know most of your friends wont be free to go out with you cuz they gotta keep their bf/gfs company, the feelin of emptiness jus sucks".


to retort to those who'd ask "so you mean you dont feel anythin when you see couples strollin happily on the streets togetha??"


fact is: i seldom feel it this way.



i love seein ppl in love come togetha. and fer maself, i'd also wan to see maself lovin a person who really loves me.


ma frens ard me dont understand why christians and non-christians cannot be togetha in a relationship. becuz to them, what matters most is that the two parties love each otha! right?


its not a matter of CAN or NOT. its a matter of choice. i can always choose to be with a non-christian who loves me like no tomorrow, yet, drawin me furtha away from ma precious God who died and bled on the cross fer me. genuine christians see things from a different light, and they jollywell know that they can never last long with a non-christian. all becuz the blood flowin in the both of them is different. the blood im talkin abt is the salvation. both parties' priorities, beliefs and mindset will differ big time too.


if you are a christian like i do, you'd understand where im comin from, and what im drivin at. if you dont, you're always invited to the church i go to, to clear the doubts you have in mind.


if not; pls read.
http://funkyhairdo.blogspot.com/
the latest entry dated on may15.


i can picture a perfect scene, the scene i wanna be in: whereby a couple, both children of God, lovin one anotha like how God commanded them to be, servin in the Lord's ministry, overcomin adversities with God's abundant grace and praisin His good name fer everythin that is given to them.


ratha than...


a couple, unequally yoked, to be quarrelin with each otha, havin totally different priorties in life.



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thru ma years in poly, i thought i found someone i really like. but then again, i thought to maself. no doubt i really like him as a person, is this goin to be some short-term relationship again, whereby i get maself hurt in the end?


the answer was no. and i know i had to give it up fer the most precious faith im holdin.




what fellowship has righteousness with lawlessness? and what communion has light with darkness?