// in His time..

last mornin at 3 plus.. i was still awake, talkin to linggie regardin some stuff.


but never did i know, at this v period... someone left me, forever.


ma 15 yr-old cousin passed away. dad called me at 7 plus while i was still in bed, cryin as he broke the news to me. shocking news i know. i was very taken aback by it too. felt really blank the entire day, at home, thru work. until i reached his funeral place, i called one of ma sis in christ, then i started crying.


i knew i needed to talk to someone, tho i made a prayer right after the tele-conversation with dad this mornin; that God is still takin charge and that qiang has left in His time.. i cried becus.. after feelin jaded fer so long. i came to realise he's really gone.. as in i will never ever get to see him agn. not even in heaven..


there at the funeral were idols, paper money, huge paper house, everything in paper. but what did they actually meant?


all of us were sad, but so what..


in Your time, in Your hand, in Your will..